wooohooo
well its been awhile. lots of things have been runnin thru my mind lately. i need to vent, a-sap B.
ok here goes
im at siena still, dont know when im leavin, but it better be soon cause i need to be in tip top shape for when oteam starts. i just am really stuck on justin. i dont know why and i dont know how, i just know i am. it sucks. not having control of your feelings. i have been SOOOO tempted to write him a letter. then he could call me a stalker. damnit, that sucks. i have no one to talk to about it either. it sucks bad time. lol funny phrase. well i can talk to Nat, but shes about justined out. i suckher into my pathetic life too often. she has her own problems. i dont need to to bear the load of mine too.....
well i cant talk to the SCS crew, cause well, they know nohting about "it". they met him once, maybe twice. everyone said he was cool. whatever.
all i know is that i was helping him become a better person. i know he was happier. u could just see it in his face. he was happier. and that made me happier. and well, i guess things got too happy, if that makes sense. whoknows. all i know is that i want "it" back, wahtever "it" was. my life felt so complete, well ab out as complete as it was going to get this past year. i felt like someone actualy genuinly cared about me and my safety, and everything else that goes along with it. calling eacother everyday. hanging out everyday. calling me many times while iw as out just to make sure i was ok and if i needed a ride. fuck. im gonna cry. haha. fuckin loser.
it wasnt just the calling, it was the "everything" i felt. me, EMily G, feeling content in a relationship. there are only a select few relationships i feel like that in. ill give it 5 at the most, the very most. ok im done. no one more thing. the secrets??? wow. i know more than anyone does about this boy, and vise versa. things i dont tell ANYONE he knows. things NOONE knows i know. and it will always stay that way. no matter what the situation is. good bad or ugly, i will hold my self to secrecy. i promise.
ok, on with my life. lol.
im coming home this weelend. tooooo excited. i need to relax, yet again. i got in a fight with a girl at work today. i was PISSED OFF!!! im over it now tho. life goes on after spilled paint. haha
well im gonnna go, i feel beter now that i got that off my chest. my big chest, hahaha. love u all, sorry it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring!!!!
comments galore appreciated!
ok here goes
im at siena still, dont know when im leavin, but it better be soon cause i need to be in tip top shape for when oteam starts. i just am really stuck on justin. i dont know why and i dont know how, i just know i am. it sucks. not having control of your feelings. i have been SOOOO tempted to write him a letter. then he could call me a stalker. damnit, that sucks. i have no one to talk to about it either. it sucks bad time. lol funny phrase. well i can talk to Nat, but shes about justined out. i suckher into my pathetic life too often. she has her own problems. i dont need to to bear the load of mine too.....
well i cant talk to the SCS crew, cause well, they know nohting about "it". they met him once, maybe twice. everyone said he was cool. whatever.
all i know is that i was helping him become a better person. i know he was happier. u could just see it in his face. he was happier. and that made me happier. and well, i guess things got too happy, if that makes sense. whoknows. all i know is that i want "it" back, wahtever "it" was. my life felt so complete, well ab out as complete as it was going to get this past year. i felt like someone actualy genuinly cared about me and my safety, and everything else that goes along with it. calling eacother everyday. hanging out everyday. calling me many times while iw as out just to make sure i was ok and if i needed a ride. fuck. im gonna cry. haha. fuckin loser.
it wasnt just the calling, it was the "everything" i felt. me, EMily G, feeling content in a relationship. there are only a select few relationships i feel like that in. ill give it 5 at the most, the very most. ok im done. no one more thing. the secrets??? wow. i know more than anyone does about this boy, and vise versa. things i dont tell ANYONE he knows. things NOONE knows i know. and it will always stay that way. no matter what the situation is. good bad or ugly, i will hold my self to secrecy. i promise.
ok, on with my life. lol.
im coming home this weelend. tooooo excited. i need to relax, yet again. i got in a fight with a girl at work today. i was PISSED OFF!!! im over it now tho. life goes on after spilled paint. haha
well im gonnna go, i feel beter now that i got that off my chest. my big chest, hahaha. love u all, sorry it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring!!!!
comments galore appreciated!