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i'm not at war with myself anymore, seems ego and self have calmed a bit. i started a painting yesterday, couldn't tear myself away from azure skies and golden dome, turquoise tiles and tan lattices. i circle it like some vulture, ready to devour it. if it only knew i'm just doing rounds, going from blind to clear sighted. i can't see the picture until i've had a break from it. staring at it for so long, you turn blind, for some reason :)