"Deep into thought"
i seam to do this every year mess up my pathetic life even more than it already is. everyday i wish to be alone. to bear my soul into poetry or a story but i cant, cause ever time i look up theres someone around. i just want to iscolate myself in my room to be alon from all the distractions,noise,and family, to be able to think my life thorough,and get my thoughts together,to get my life, and emotions together.ive made mistakes in my life that i regret,and i wish i could take it all back.th past the present, and whatever i may do in the future. i know people worry about me and wanna know whats wrong with me. but i rfuse to let them know what my real reason for being depressed, for having these thoughts go through my head. i want so much to let my emotions run free but what the use i dont have a say in anything. i feel like every one is dpending on me for every thing, all the preasure of wanting to be something im not,dissapointing people, i HATE myself for it and i cant stand it. i dont like the fact that people are trying to make me something im not,and i cant take it anymore. i know what i have to do, i have to let my feelings come out, i dont know when but sooner or later its gonna come out.