I need something to ease the pain
LAST PERSON WHO
Slept in your bed: Me
Saw you cry: Jenny Lee and Tiffany was on the phone with me
Spent the night at your house: Grace
You went to the movies with: Jayce
You went to the mall with: Jenny Lee
Yelled at you: Can't remember at the time...
Sent you an e-mail: Haven't checked in a while
Said they were going to kill you: Probably Tiffany
Said "I love you" and meant it? Jenny Lee
Been to New York? What are you thinking?!
Been to Florida? Live here
Hawaii? Yup. Good times
Mexico? Nope, but I'm going this summer
Danced naked? What kind of question is that?
Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? no
Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? Yup. my relationship.
Wish you were the opposite sex? No. Boys are too stupid
Had an imaginary friend? Nope.
THIS OR THAT
Red or blue? Blue
Spring or fall? Spring
Santa or Rudolph? The young version of Chris Cringle in that old clay-animation TV movie they put on every year during Christmas, because he reminds me of Jayce.
Math or English? English
What are you going to do after you finish this survey? Do much needed homework while listening to depressing music and trying not to cry...
What was the last food you ate? A bunch of Mr. Goodbars
Are you bored? I'm too depressed and confused to be bored
How many buddies are on? good question...lemme check....21
Last movie you saw? Princess Diaries 2
Last noise you heard? Straylight Run CD
Do you have a crush on someone? Getting over it
Do they know? yes they do. but it doesnt matter anyways...
What's his/her name? I don't want to talk about it
What do you think of ouija boards? demonic
What book are you reading now? Power of a praying Woman, Discourse on Method (DeCartes), and Measure for Measure (Shakespeare)
What's on your mouse pad? No mouse pad
Favorite magazine? Cosmo
Worst feeling in the world? The brokenheart that I'm feeling now
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? How much love sucks, how I'm never going to catch up on my depression.
Future daughter's name? I'll probably never have kids
Chocolate or vanilla? Choclate
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No
If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? Extreme Home Makeover
Are you a lefty, rightly or ambidextrous? righty
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? yup, thank you 9th grade computer class
Hair Color: red
Eye Color: Blue green
Height Currently: 5'1"
Glasses/contacts: nope
Current Age: 18
Location: St. Augustine
College: Flagler
Any Piercings: ears
What Type Automobile You Drive: Honda
Are You Timely Or Always Late: either really early or late
Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Apparently, yes.
Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: I am now
Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: yes I did, and it screwed me in the end
Are You Lonely Right Now? I have my best friends, but I do feel very lonely right now...
Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: One of my biggest fears
Do You Want To Get Married: that would be my dream
Do You Want Kids: heck yes I do
FAVORITE ..
Room In house: My room
Type of music: A lot of different stuff
Song: Collide by Howie Day
Memory: I have alot...but I would have to say my favorite is when Jayce and I first cuddled to Starsky and Hutch
Day Of The Week: Wednesday
Color: green
perfume or cologne: Obsession
Flower: Roses
I feel betrayed by God right now...How could something that has helped me heal from my past hurts just cause me more pain in the end? I feel betrayed by some of the guys at Fusion too...who take all the time in the world to talk to Jayce but don't even wonder if I'm okay....They just think oh, Jayce must be hurting and I have to support him. Even though everything about me has been completly broken. Jayce is the one who needs time to heal? That's crap. I don't care what he says. Jenny Lee's right. You don't hold hands and cuddle and date someone for a freakin year and then decide Oh. I don't want this anymore. That's intentional heartbreak. But I guess the guys assume that because Jayce has no emotions, neither do I. I guess my past hurts and trials just don't mean anything to my friends at Fusion, because they just don't care.
I really hate life. It's just being wasted on me. I don't even want it.
Slept in your bed: Me
Saw you cry: Jenny Lee and Tiffany was on the phone with me
Spent the night at your house: Grace
You went to the movies with: Jayce
You went to the mall with: Jenny Lee
Yelled at you: Can't remember at the time...
Sent you an e-mail: Haven't checked in a while
Said they were going to kill you: Probably Tiffany
Said "I love you" and meant it? Jenny Lee
Been to New York? What are you thinking?!
Been to Florida? Live here
Hawaii? Yup. Good times
Mexico? Nope, but I'm going this summer
Danced naked? What kind of question is that?
Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? no
Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? Yup. my relationship.
Wish you were the opposite sex? No. Boys are too stupid
Had an imaginary friend? Nope.
THIS OR THAT
Red or blue? Blue
Spring or fall? Spring
Santa or Rudolph? The young version of Chris Cringle in that old clay-animation TV movie they put on every year during Christmas, because he reminds me of Jayce.
Math or English? English
What are you going to do after you finish this survey? Do much needed homework while listening to depressing music and trying not to cry...
What was the last food you ate? A bunch of Mr. Goodbars
Are you bored? I'm too depressed and confused to be bored
How many buddies are on? good question...lemme check....21
Last movie you saw? Princess Diaries 2
Last noise you heard? Straylight Run CD
Do you have a crush on someone? Getting over it
Do they know? yes they do. but it doesnt matter anyways...
What's his/her name? I don't want to talk about it
What do you think of ouija boards? demonic
What book are you reading now? Power of a praying Woman, Discourse on Method (DeCartes), and Measure for Measure (Shakespeare)
What's on your mouse pad? No mouse pad
Favorite magazine? Cosmo
Worst feeling in the world? The brokenheart that I'm feeling now
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? How much love sucks, how I'm never going to catch up on my depression.
Future daughter's name? I'll probably never have kids
Chocolate or vanilla? Choclate
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No
If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? Extreme Home Makeover
Are you a lefty, rightly or ambidextrous? righty
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? yup, thank you 9th grade computer class
Hair Color: red
Eye Color: Blue green
Height Currently: 5'1"
Glasses/contacts: nope
Current Age: 18
Location: St. Augustine
College: Flagler
Any Piercings: ears
What Type Automobile You Drive: Honda
Are You Timely Or Always Late: either really early or late
Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Apparently, yes.
Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: I am now
Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: yes I did, and it screwed me in the end
Are You Lonely Right Now? I have my best friends, but I do feel very lonely right now...
Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: One of my biggest fears
Do You Want To Get Married: that would be my dream
Do You Want Kids: heck yes I do
FAVORITE ..
Room In house: My room
Type of music: A lot of different stuff
Song: Collide by Howie Day
Memory: I have alot...but I would have to say my favorite is when Jayce and I first cuddled to Starsky and Hutch
Day Of The Week: Wednesday
Color: green
perfume or cologne: Obsession
Flower: Roses
I feel betrayed by God right now...How could something that has helped me heal from my past hurts just cause me more pain in the end? I feel betrayed by some of the guys at Fusion too...who take all the time in the world to talk to Jayce but don't even wonder if I'm okay....They just think oh, Jayce must be hurting and I have to support him. Even though everything about me has been completly broken. Jayce is the one who needs time to heal? That's crap. I don't care what he says. Jenny Lee's right. You don't hold hands and cuddle and date someone for a freakin year and then decide Oh. I don't want this anymore. That's intentional heartbreak. But I guess the guys assume that because Jayce has no emotions, neither do I. I guess my past hurts and trials just don't mean anything to my friends at Fusion, because they just don't care.
I really hate life. It's just being wasted on me. I don't even want it.