WARNING
I HAVE BEEN ON MY OWN SITE PROBABLY THE EQUIVALENT OF TWENTY TIMES TONIGHT AND CAN NOT WRITE ANYTHING
I THINK ITS BECAUSE I AM SO EMPTY INSIDE
11 AM
"Seven a.m.
The garbage truck beaps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse, signifying the end
But I missed the best part
Could we please go back to start?
Forgive my indecision
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride
Eleven a.m.
By now you would think that I would be up
But my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've made
And what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much
Cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear
Forgive my indecision
I am only a man
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride
Twelve p.m. and my dusty telephone rings
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?
I hope it's you"
FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ACTUALLY READ ALL OF MY ENTRIES.... REMEMBER THE TIME I WAS TALKING ABOUT HOW I SCROLL DOWN A HUNDRED NAMES BUT DON'T SEE ONE NAME WHO CAN HELP. IT WAS WHEN HESSE AND I WERE GOING TO BREAKUP WELL TONIGHT HAS BEEN LIKE THAT...
BUT WORSE!
Blood on the Ground
"I don't want to talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue everytime you come around
Cause blood in my mouth beats blood on the ground
Hand over my heart I swear I've tried everything I could
Within all my power two weeks and one hour
I slaved and now I've got nothing to show
Oh if only you'd grow taller than a brick wall
From now on I'm gonna start holding my breath
When you come around and you flex that fake grin
Cause something inside of me has said more than twice
That breathing less air beats breathing you at all
I don't want to talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue everytime you come around
Cause blood in my mouth beats blood on the ground
Hand over my mouth I'm earning the right to my silence
In quiet discerning between ego and timing
Good judgement is once again proving to me that it's
Still worth it's weight in gold
From now on I'm gonna be so much more wary
When you start to speak and my warm blood starts to boil
That seeing you is like pulling teeth
And hearing your voice is like chewing tin foil
I don't want to talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue everytime you come around
Cause blood in my mouth beats blood on the ground
High fives to a better judgement
By saying less today I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"
WELL IT'S WORSE BECAUSE INSTEAD OF SEEING NAMES IM SEEING FACES. HONESTY I NEED A GUY RIGHT NOW AND ALTHOUGH HESSE'S DRIVING RIGHT THIS SECOND IT MAKES IT WORSE. CUZ TOMORROW I WILL HAVE THE COMFORT OF HIS PRESENCE. BUT HONESTLY RIGHT NOW HE COULD HELP BUT I DON'T THINK HE COULD IN THE RIGHT WAY. I NEED SEAN OR GUY. MY BUDDIES THEY PEOPLE WHO ARE THERE FOR ME IN A DIFFERENT WAY THAN HESSE IS. I NEED MY BOYS, I THOUGHT OF CALLING GUY BUT IT WOULD BE THE SAME AS TALKING TO HESSE. I DON'T NEED HIS VOICE I NEED HIS HUGS. I ALWAYS CRY ON GUY'S SHOULDER...IT'S LIKE TRADITION AND I NEED IT NOW. I THOUGHT GUY COULD BE REPLACED (IN A SENCE) BUT I WON'T WORK I WENT OVER TO COLE'S AND I JUST NEEDED HIM TO SAY HI AND GIVE ME A HUG BUT INSTEAD HE LEFT WITH HIS NEW GIRL.I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH THE GIRL IT'S JUST I NEED HIM AND LIKE EVERYONE ELSE HE KINDA DISAPPEARED
Mexico
"You could see me reaching
So why couldn't you have met me half way?
You could see me bleeding
And you would not put pressure on the wound
You only think about yourself...you only think about yourself
You better bend before I go
On the next train to Mexico
You could see my breathing
But you still kept your hand over my mouth
You could feel me seething
But you just turned your nose up in the air
You only think about yourself...you only think about yourself
You better bend before I go
On the next train to Mexico"
I THOUGHT I WOULD TRY MOOSE BUT HE'S OVER HERE WORKING ON A PAPER AND I KINDA HARDLY KNOW HIM SO I CALLED RJ... HE'S A COOL GUY AND WOULD UNDERSTAND AND WOULD LISTEN LIKE GUY BUT HE DIDN'T PICK UP HIS PHONE. HONESTLY EVERYTHING HURTS SO BAD CUZ IM ALONE.
Wish You Were Here
"I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here
I lay my head into the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it
I'm counting UFO's
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here
The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care but my hands are busy in the air"
I CAN NOT WAIT TILL TOMORROW. WHEN THE PERSON I LOVE WILL HAVE ME WRAPPED UP IN HIS ARMS. THE FEELING SO SO AWESOME! BABE I LOVE YOU AND EVEN THOUGH I DON'T FEEL LIKE I CAN TALK TO YOU RIGHT NOW IT'S ONLY CUZ IM SAD AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE SAD FOR ME.
Echo
"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight
My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear...something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting
There's something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something, someone contrives
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing
Your biggest fear will be the rescue of you
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear...something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting"
WOW IT'S STRANGE THAT ALL THESE INCUBUS SONGS CAME FROM MORNING VIEW I THOUGHT I DIDN'T LIKE THAT ALBUM. STRANGE
IM OUT - ALISE
Warning
"Bat your eyes girl
Be otherworldly
Count your blessings
Seduce a stranger
What's so wrong with
Being happy
Kudos to those who
See through sickness
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves before it's
Made illegal
When will we learn?
When will we change?
Just in time to
See it all fall down
Those left standing...will make millions
Writing books on the way it should have been
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
Floating in this
Cosmic jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
To the water
Starting to boil
No one flinches
We all float face down
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by"
I THINK ITS BECAUSE I AM SO EMPTY INSIDE
11 AM
"Seven a.m.
The garbage truck beaps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse, signifying the end
But I missed the best part
Could we please go back to start?
Forgive my indecision
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride
Eleven a.m.
By now you would think that I would be up
But my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've made
And what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much
Cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear
Forgive my indecision
I am only a man
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride
Twelve p.m. and my dusty telephone rings
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?
I hope it's you"
FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ACTUALLY READ ALL OF MY ENTRIES.... REMEMBER THE TIME I WAS TALKING ABOUT HOW I SCROLL DOWN A HUNDRED NAMES BUT DON'T SEE ONE NAME WHO CAN HELP. IT WAS WHEN HESSE AND I WERE GOING TO BREAKUP WELL TONIGHT HAS BEEN LIKE THAT...
BUT WORSE!
Blood on the Ground
"I don't want to talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue everytime you come around
Cause blood in my mouth beats blood on the ground
Hand over my heart I swear I've tried everything I could
Within all my power two weeks and one hour
I slaved and now I've got nothing to show
Oh if only you'd grow taller than a brick wall
From now on I'm gonna start holding my breath
When you come around and you flex that fake grin
Cause something inside of me has said more than twice
That breathing less air beats breathing you at all
I don't want to talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue everytime you come around
Cause blood in my mouth beats blood on the ground
Hand over my mouth I'm earning the right to my silence
In quiet discerning between ego and timing
Good judgement is once again proving to me that it's
Still worth it's weight in gold
From now on I'm gonna be so much more wary
When you start to speak and my warm blood starts to boil
That seeing you is like pulling teeth
And hearing your voice is like chewing tin foil
I don't want to talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue everytime you come around
Cause blood in my mouth beats blood on the ground
High fives to a better judgement
By saying less today I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"
WELL IT'S WORSE BECAUSE INSTEAD OF SEEING NAMES IM SEEING FACES. HONESTY I NEED A GUY RIGHT NOW AND ALTHOUGH HESSE'S DRIVING RIGHT THIS SECOND IT MAKES IT WORSE. CUZ TOMORROW I WILL HAVE THE COMFORT OF HIS PRESENCE. BUT HONESTLY RIGHT NOW HE COULD HELP BUT I DON'T THINK HE COULD IN THE RIGHT WAY. I NEED SEAN OR GUY. MY BUDDIES THEY PEOPLE WHO ARE THERE FOR ME IN A DIFFERENT WAY THAN HESSE IS. I NEED MY BOYS, I THOUGHT OF CALLING GUY BUT IT WOULD BE THE SAME AS TALKING TO HESSE. I DON'T NEED HIS VOICE I NEED HIS HUGS. I ALWAYS CRY ON GUY'S SHOULDER...IT'S LIKE TRADITION AND I NEED IT NOW. I THOUGHT GUY COULD BE REPLACED (IN A SENCE) BUT I WON'T WORK I WENT OVER TO COLE'S AND I JUST NEEDED HIM TO SAY HI AND GIVE ME A HUG BUT INSTEAD HE LEFT WITH HIS NEW GIRL.I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH THE GIRL IT'S JUST I NEED HIM AND LIKE EVERYONE ELSE HE KINDA DISAPPEARED
Mexico
"You could see me reaching
So why couldn't you have met me half way?
You could see me bleeding
And you would not put pressure on the wound
You only think about yourself...you only think about yourself
You better bend before I go
On the next train to Mexico
You could see my breathing
But you still kept your hand over my mouth
You could feel me seething
But you just turned your nose up in the air
You only think about yourself...you only think about yourself
You better bend before I go
On the next train to Mexico"
I THOUGHT I WOULD TRY MOOSE BUT HE'S OVER HERE WORKING ON A PAPER AND I KINDA HARDLY KNOW HIM SO I CALLED RJ... HE'S A COOL GUY AND WOULD UNDERSTAND AND WOULD LISTEN LIKE GUY BUT HE DIDN'T PICK UP HIS PHONE. HONESTLY EVERYTHING HURTS SO BAD CUZ IM ALONE.
Wish You Were Here
"I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here
I lay my head into the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it
I'm counting UFO's
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here
The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care but my hands are busy in the air"
I CAN NOT WAIT TILL TOMORROW. WHEN THE PERSON I LOVE WILL HAVE ME WRAPPED UP IN HIS ARMS. THE FEELING SO SO AWESOME! BABE I LOVE YOU AND EVEN THOUGH I DON'T FEEL LIKE I CAN TALK TO YOU RIGHT NOW IT'S ONLY CUZ IM SAD AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE SAD FOR ME.
Echo
"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight
My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear...something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting
There's something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something, someone contrives
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing
Your biggest fear will be the rescue of you
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear...something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting"
WOW IT'S STRANGE THAT ALL THESE INCUBUS SONGS CAME FROM MORNING VIEW I THOUGHT I DIDN'T LIKE THAT ALBUM. STRANGE
IM OUT - ALISE
Warning
"Bat your eyes girl
Be otherworldly
Count your blessings
Seduce a stranger
What's so wrong with
Being happy
Kudos to those who
See through sickness
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves before it's
Made illegal
When will we learn?
When will we change?
Just in time to
See it all fall down
Those left standing...will make millions
Writing books on the way it should have been
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
Floating in this
Cosmic jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
To the water
Starting to boil
No one flinches
We all float face down
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by"