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I'll love you til the end. You're the one for me. I have no doubt of that in my soul - at least the part of my soul that I can consciously get to.
But I'm still working through the guilt from before. It's hard. And not instant. And I wish I could snap my fingers and have it all be ended. Sometimes I really despise how caring I can be...this is one of those occasions. I think it's better, though, to feel and consequently feel guilt on top of the feeling than to not feel anything at all.
I'm gonna be okay. I'm going to be fine.
It's just going to take time to get there.
My impatience does not make it simple.
But I'm still working through the guilt from before. It's hard. And not instant. And I wish I could snap my fingers and have it all be ended. Sometimes I really despise how caring I can be...this is one of those occasions. I think it's better, though, to feel and consequently feel guilt on top of the feeling than to not feel anything at all.
I'm gonna be okay. I'm going to be fine.
It's just going to take time to get there.
My impatience does not make it simple.