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I asked for patience. You can't have patience given to you. But you are given instead situations that help you to grow your patience greater and stronger. I guess that's what this is.
I really hate it because it makes me feel awful.
I'm sorry if this is upsetting to you. Or if it's inappropriote for current events. But regardless of all of that, it's how I feel and I'm not going to hide my feelings under "it's fine" because it isn't fine. Sorry if this was a ring around the rosie way to do it. But you were asleep.