Apr 20, 2007 01:05
Life looks like it's so big I'll never finish it from where I stand. There's too much to do, too much to say, too many people to meet, too many experiences to have. The sky's the limit.
And I only discovered this week that human personality is a fluid thing; it doesn't have to be monolithically "I'm X, Y, and Z." It can and should change and be dynamic and never settle down (save what's necessary to survive and get along in the world, which is the Prime Mover, and I'm of course still working on that). But I can be the ultimate in socially active/extroverted and switch one week later to the most hermetically-sealed introvert you'd know. I can know what it means to be confident, inconfident, unconcerned with confidence, Gandhi, God, Lenin, Luther, Crowley, Christ, Berkeley, Bob, Christian, Catholic, Muslim, Mormon...I can become any and every person from history through emulation and personality construction. "I have become all things to all men." A complete master and emulation of the universe, a complete explorer and experiencer - a connoisseur of all things, master of...
There's just too much! The sky's the limit! Damn, I'm in love with life, with Her. You, Nothing and All, "Infinite Space and the Infinite Stars thereof...I who am all pleasure and purple..."
And to think there may exist other human beings in some objective reality unprovable to my consciousness are other people who have this capacity. Damn. Damn damn damn. Wow wow wow. Multiple universes, indeed.