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everything is falling apart and i feel completely helpless.
the only big sister i have is addicted to painkillers. possibly alcohol and other pills. it is so far out of her control at this point and i wish i would have said something to someone sooner. i think i just didnt want to believe and didnt know how bad it really was.
she could lose her job, her husband, her car, everything. she could die. shes killing herself with this as we speak.
she has ms and takes medication for that. who knows how this is affecting the ms or interacting with the medicine she has to take for it.
its completely spiraling out of control. i cant lose my only big sister. she means the world to me.
she isnt the same person she used to be. the bright spirit ive always admired in her is gone. we've grown so close over the last few years and she truly does mean everything to me.
but right now everything is different. she lies to everyone, me, her husband, our parents, her boss, even her closest friends.
we are planning an intervention to take place early friday morning. there is a treatment center in yakima we want her to go to. its a three week program and her job has already okay'd the time off as a medical leave of absence. im terrified that she wont go though. i cant even think about what will happen to her if she wont. and how she is going to respond. i just hope she sees how much we all love her and that we just want to help. and to see that she does need help. ive never had to deal with anything like this before and ive never been more stressed.
i had to secretly pack her a bag for rehab today, that way if we get her to agree to go we can leave immediately. but it was so hard. i sat on her closet floor and cried.
i havent been sleeping or eating. i have a constant knot in my stomach/throat. ive tried talking to a few close friends, but i get the feeling they just dont get it or maybe they dont care. this is why i need my sister
the only big sister i have is addicted to painkillers. possibly alcohol and other pills. it is so far out of her control at this point and i wish i would have said something to someone sooner. i think i just didnt want to believe and didnt know how bad it really was.
she could lose her job, her husband, her car, everything. she could die. shes killing herself with this as we speak.
she has ms and takes medication for that. who knows how this is affecting the ms or interacting with the medicine she has to take for it.
its completely spiraling out of control. i cant lose my only big sister. she means the world to me.
she isnt the same person she used to be. the bright spirit ive always admired in her is gone. we've grown so close over the last few years and she truly does mean everything to me.
but right now everything is different. she lies to everyone, me, her husband, our parents, her boss, even her closest friends.
we are planning an intervention to take place early friday morning. there is a treatment center in yakima we want her to go to. its a three week program and her job has already okay'd the time off as a medical leave of absence. im terrified that she wont go though. i cant even think about what will happen to her if she wont. and how she is going to respond. i just hope she sees how much we all love her and that we just want to help. and to see that she does need help. ive never had to deal with anything like this before and ive never been more stressed.
i had to secretly pack her a bag for rehab today, that way if we get her to agree to go we can leave immediately. but it was so hard. i sat on her closet floor and cried.
i havent been sleeping or eating. i have a constant knot in my stomach/throat. ive tried talking to a few close friends, but i get the feeling they just dont get it or maybe they dont care. this is why i need my sister