Bonjour Mes Amis
Lately I've been in a very spiritual mood and just felt overall like I need to be better. I need to look better, I need to be better in school, I need to have a better relationship with God, I need to be a better sister, I need to be a better person!
I guess that everyone goes through this and its ok because throught it all I have started working out daily so that is making both my mental and physical health a little bit better. I have also started using a prayer/meditation book daily. I dunno, I just feel like there is something missing, I should have accomplished some great feat by now, I mean I have had 18 years to do something truly tremendous and what do I have to show for it? What IS the meaning of life and existence? I have also realized that I question and overanalyze everything and I both hate and love that. I opened my book today and the first little saying/meditation that I came across was this:
"Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves...
Don't search for the answers.
They could not be given to you now,
because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is, to live everything.
Live the questions now.
Perhaps then, someday in the future,
you will gradually, without even noticing it,
live your way into the answer."
~Rainer Maria
Yeah and people tell me I'm crazy cuz I see signs in little things...well I think that was a big sign from the Big Guy and I'm totally livin it up.
Another thing that has been on my mind alot lately is morals. I have just been really thinking alot about what kind of person I want to be in all aspects of my life. I have decided that I am steadfast in my decision to wait for sex until marraige, and NO ONE can take that gift away from me unless I give it to them, and that won't be happening until the night of "you may now kiss the bride." I have also decided that when it comes to dating, why do it if it isn't going to go anywhere. I won't just fool around with someone mentally or physically because that is disrespecting not one but two precious temples of the Lord. I know I sound like a nun right now so sorry but this is who I am and I am not ashamed to let it be known.
Alright I think we have all had enough for one night so I am going to take my overanalytical self and finish my French homework so that I can get some sleep.
Thought of the day:
Where are YOU going and how far would you go to get there?
I guess that everyone goes through this and its ok because throught it all I have started working out daily so that is making both my mental and physical health a little bit better. I have also started using a prayer/meditation book daily. I dunno, I just feel like there is something missing, I should have accomplished some great feat by now, I mean I have had 18 years to do something truly tremendous and what do I have to show for it? What IS the meaning of life and existence? I have also realized that I question and overanalyze everything and I both hate and love that. I opened my book today and the first little saying/meditation that I came across was this:
"Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves...
Don't search for the answers.
They could not be given to you now,
because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is, to live everything.
Live the questions now.
Perhaps then, someday in the future,
you will gradually, without even noticing it,
live your way into the answer."
~Rainer Maria
Yeah and people tell me I'm crazy cuz I see signs in little things...well I think that was a big sign from the Big Guy and I'm totally livin it up.
Another thing that has been on my mind alot lately is morals. I have just been really thinking alot about what kind of person I want to be in all aspects of my life. I have decided that I am steadfast in my decision to wait for sex until marraige, and NO ONE can take that gift away from me unless I give it to them, and that won't be happening until the night of "you may now kiss the bride." I have also decided that when it comes to dating, why do it if it isn't going to go anywhere. I won't just fool around with someone mentally or physically because that is disrespecting not one but two precious temples of the Lord. I know I sound like a nun right now so sorry but this is who I am and I am not ashamed to let it be known.
Alright I think we have all had enough for one night so I am going to take my overanalytical self and finish my French homework so that I can get some sleep.
Thought of the day:
Where are YOU going and how far would you go to get there?