Ouch.....

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The other night I fell off of Aaron's back from a couple of feet in the air and hit my face on the ground as well as my shoulder. He has a road burn on his knee and I have the same thing just on my face and my shoulder. Under my right eye is sorta black. I feel so ugly. I hardly have gone outside except for school and to the store with Aaron last night. I am going to to the Farmer's Market here in a few minutes. I love it normally but I feel so self concious right now. I know it is silly as all get out. Anyway, when I get home I am going to take care of myself. I am going to actually eat well tonight since I haven't been eating much and I am down to 117. I used to pride myself on my weight and now I think it is so stupid of me to put my value in my image. The reason being is for this instance right now. Here I am feeling ugly and not sexy just because I have a gash on my face. Aaron is helping me to realize where I have been making faulty logic over the years. The whole thing is that I was raised by a mother with a severe eating disorder. I think that explains a lot right there. Wow, this entry has been totally random and almost hard to follow, I am sorry about that. I need to write in here more. I forget how much I like it. Well, the rest of the night I am going to eat well as I said before and do a hot oil treatment on my hair and give myself a pedicure and probably watch movies with my roommate. Oh yah, Countdown to my birthday: 7 days. It seems like just yesterday I turned 21. Crazy.
Love,
Des