The panic attack diaries.
Breathe. Breathless.
Hands shaking while they hold up your head.
The head from which sweat drips and cheeks flush.
The cheeks so flushed support the tears that fall.
That fall from the eyes which are wide with panic.
Don't. Not here, not now.
Breathe. Shallow.
Calmer.
Can you do it?
So today was FUN. I almost had a panic attack twice.
I'm stressed out because of school and the sort of plethora of lies that I've spun. It's getting a bit out of control and I'm worried that it's all just going to collapse in on me. I need to revise more, actually DO my homework, I need to write more, get up on time, arrive at school on time, stop sleeping in, stop forgetting what day it is, be a better friend. But most of all, I need to breathe.
So I've got 13002 words. Not a lot considering if I had stuck to my word count everyday and actually written everyday I would have well over 30k. I'm going to fail. I have too much stuff to do and I can't do it all on top of writing about 5k a day if I want to win. Instead, I'm writing 40k. My boyfriend, being the sweetheart he is, told me that if I wrote 40k by November 30th he would do something I thought he never would - he'll go see a musical with me. So 3000 words every day plus 17k this weekend! I am crazy.
What musical should I make him go see, because I am so doing this. >:D
Hands shaking while they hold up your head.
The head from which sweat drips and cheeks flush.
The cheeks so flushed support the tears that fall.
That fall from the eyes which are wide with panic.
Don't. Not here, not now.
Breathe. Shallow.
Calmer.
Can you do it?
So today was FUN. I almost had a panic attack twice.
I'm stressed out because of school and the sort of plethora of lies that I've spun. It's getting a bit out of control and I'm worried that it's all just going to collapse in on me. I need to revise more, actually DO my homework, I need to write more, get up on time, arrive at school on time, stop sleeping in, stop forgetting what day it is, be a better friend. But most of all, I need to breathe.
So I've got 13002 words. Not a lot considering if I had stuck to my word count everyday and actually written everyday I would have well over 30k. I'm going to fail. I have too much stuff to do and I can't do it all on top of writing about 5k a day if I want to win. Instead, I'm writing 40k. My boyfriend, being the sweetheart he is, told me that if I wrote 40k by November 30th he would do something I thought he never would - he'll go see a musical with me. So 3000 words every day plus 17k this weekend! I am crazy.
What musical should I make him go see, because I am so doing this. >:D