No one puts Baby in a corner.
Oh my god. I am massively attracted to a man who is LITERALLY twice my age. And I'm not talking about my girlboner for Robert Downey Jr. I mean someone I know in real life. Ohgodohgod.
AND DID I MENTION THAT HE LIKES ME BACK? BECAUSE HE DOES. HE TOLD ME.
Hee. :3
Ohhhhhhhh god. My life. What the fuck. IS IT OBVIOUS THAT I AM SORT OF LOSING MY SHIT ABOUT THIS? BECAUSE I AM. It's like all I think about. I feel like such a child. Like a retarded teenager person. These past few months I've been really good about not flying off the handle when I have a crush on someone and I've actually been quite mature about my recent romantic entanglements in terms of being aloof and not a big drooling jelloid thing. But. Guh. This guy is just. Driving me a little crazy! And I've only known him three days! This can't be good.
FUNNY STORY. Last week, I was talking to my friend David about relationships and how I really wasn't interested in getting involved with ANYONE right now, and he warned me that when you're not looking for it is exactly when you fall in love with someone. So...it looks like I'm fucked. Hooray! I MEAN NO. Not hooray. This is such a hot mess. I mean, he isn't even single. He LIVES with his GIRLFRIEND. And I kind of don't care all that much? Like, my conscience is telling me that it's bad form to pursue someone who is already committed to somebody else, but just as a formality. I don't actually FEEL that, it's just something I know and accept to be true because of, like, movies I've seen and values I have absorbed from my environment. The smart thing would be to play it safe, to learn from the many who have ventured down this twisted road before (i.e., everyone else who FUCKED UP). I really should behave like a sensible person and ignore the attraction, but I've never been in a situation like this before! I don't want to be safe! I want to play with fire!! It's wrong and depraved and fucking exciting and I kind of want to throw caution to the wind and let myself make an enormous, awful mistake because, to tell you the truth, it sounds really fucking fun.
AND DID I MENTION THAT HE LIKES ME BACK? BECAUSE HE DOES. HE TOLD ME.
Hee. :3
Ohhhhhhhh god. My life. What the fuck. IS IT OBVIOUS THAT I AM SORT OF LOSING MY SHIT ABOUT THIS? BECAUSE I AM. It's like all I think about. I feel like such a child. Like a retarded teenager person. These past few months I've been really good about not flying off the handle when I have a crush on someone and I've actually been quite mature about my recent romantic entanglements in terms of being aloof and not a big drooling jelloid thing. But. Guh. This guy is just. Driving me a little crazy! And I've only known him three days! This can't be good.
FUNNY STORY. Last week, I was talking to my friend David about relationships and how I really wasn't interested in getting involved with ANYONE right now, and he warned me that when you're not looking for it is exactly when you fall in love with someone. So...it looks like I'm fucked. Hooray! I MEAN NO. Not hooray. This is such a hot mess. I mean, he isn't even single. He LIVES with his GIRLFRIEND. And I kind of don't care all that much? Like, my conscience is telling me that it's bad form to pursue someone who is already committed to somebody else, but just as a formality. I don't actually FEEL that, it's just something I know and accept to be true because of, like, movies I've seen and values I have absorbed from my environment. The smart thing would be to play it safe, to learn from the many who have ventured down this twisted road before (i.e., everyone else who FUCKED UP). I really should behave like a sensible person and ignore the attraction, but I've never been in a situation like this before! I don't want to be safe! I want to play with fire!! It's wrong and depraved and fucking exciting and I kind of want to throw caution to the wind and let myself make an enormous, awful mistake because, to tell you the truth, it sounds really fucking fun.