Better days

[faceforgotten24]

I woke up today and finally told myself..."Ok" I will goto Hawaii with Fred for a week. For awhile I would tell myself I shouldnt go because I don't have the money to throw away......But the thing is...I do I have it. Just over the past few months I have become so cheap. I would rather pay my bills than have a good time. I want to get my bills paid off by half so I can pack up and get the hell out of Michigan. Everyone else is leaving or gone. So why not me? Maybe it is easier for everyone else because their mother is not sick 6 days out of the week. I know I should do things that make me happy. But I am not selfish when it comes to that. I want my friends and family happy too. Ever since I was little all I wanted was to live a comfortable life and not have to worry about anything. Once my bills are down by half I think I will be able to start living again. Over the past few years I keep shutting myself off....To family, friends, relationships. I am tired of hiding and I am tired of being a dreamer. So I deserve this vacation to Hawaii more than anyone I know. I feel like I give and give all the time and lately i feel rundown. So I hope this vacation will clear my head. I am not like alot of people when it comes to my life. I don't run. I deal with it and then move on. I should get going....This is going to be a great weekend. Going to Cedar point with Fred and then spending the rest of the weekend at his apartment. Emily is going to come over and hang out with us. I hope Katie will be able to come too...She is sooo fun...Nadine is in town too so she is coming. It will be a damn good time. Its nice to forget about the world around you and just cherish the moment you are in.

Be Happy for this moment, This moment is your life.