Kicking In
The past few days I have been doing some thinking....Go figure...It seems like lately that is all I have been doing. Yeterday at work I told Sam I wanted to talk about how much my raise was going to be when I get it in september. He told asked me how much do I think I should get. I told him I think I deserve $1.25 more an hour. He just laughed at me and said "I was thinking .75 more." Everyone keeps telling me 1.25 more an hour is alot. Not really if you think about it. Right now I am making 15.00 an hour. With the hours I work for two weeks that would give me 100.00 more a paycheck. I work for two stores. That means Sam would give me 50 more and Randy would give me 50. Why is that so impossible for them. They just bought another store in Febuary, The bought a $300.000 house 2 months ago and they are about to do a closing on another business next week. So they have to be doing good. They have to have the money. I wrote Sam a letter before I left work last night telling him why I think I deserve it. So We will see when I goto work what he says.
In Other news, I am getting my hair cut tomorrow at 3:30. I don't know if I want to try something new or just go with the same old thing. I think I am in desperate need of a change. Which calls for breaking down and spending some money for some new clothes too. Im just tired of feeling down all the time because of the way I look. I can never do anything with my hair and I never want to even leave the house. I never use to be like this. I remember back in the days when I would goto the bars I would have so much fun. People would look at me while I was out and it made me feel so good about myself. I think I need a boost. People are always telling me I am cute but I just don't believe it anymore. I feel I am getting older and there is only room for the younger groups. Thank god I can pass as 17 or 18....I think I am going to be 21 again. That was a pretty good age.
I have a wedding to goto This friday with Fred. One of his oldest friends from high school is getting married at Pine Knob mansion in Clarkston. It should be fun. The last wedding we went to 2 months ago was alot of fun. I just hope I am not hung over the next day. I have to work at the burton store all day. And then sunday I have to work at the waterford store all day. Oh well...It should be worth it.
I really hope this season they come out with some new shows that are good. Im tired of all these shitty shows that come out on Tv and get bad ratings. I am so glad the OC is only on the 3rd season. I am actually sad that OAF is over with. Fred and I have been watching this past season and we only have a few episodes left. Then what? Its over with forever. Just Like Buffy....Holly, Jon and I were so sad when season 7 of Buffy ended. OAF has been on since December of 1999. It has to be one of my all time fav shows. Not because I am gay. I just feel like I can relate with alot of the things they go through. Alot of the people in the show grew on me. And its going to be hard to think its over with.
I called today and made an appointment for the Dermatologist for Tuesday August 30th. I am hoping he will be able to pinpoint what is going on with my body and these discusting bumps all over. I would like to get back out into the world and actually have some fun before I die. Later that night is the Coldplay Concert at DTE with Holly and Jen Yeager. That should fun. Coldplay has always had an effect on me....That voice for some reason can always either get me moving or get me worked up. They sing with such passion and its nothing like all the other artists out there. Im excited for the concert. Holly got the tickets awhile ago. She paid 80 bucks a ticket. I guess I should give her the money I owe her. Either I forget when I see her or she is working. I am sure I will end up just giving it to her the day of the concert (In Cash) Of course so she can blow it all on beer.
I miss Amy alot. Its hard to talk to her and not think she is so far away. I keep thinking something will open up here for Phil and they can move back. But they both have it really good in Texas. And they both love it. Of course they miss their friends and family. People they grew up with and shared memories with. But I think they both need this. Amy has never done anything this drastic in her life. It just shows how much she loves Phil. And I don't believe Phil has ever done anything this drastic. They make a good team. I don't know what life would be like without Amy and Phil together. It just sounds weird and I could never picture it. They are like peanut butter and Jelly? Milk and Cookies? Cheese and Pizza? You get the idea. They cannot be seperated. If you seperate them then the world wouldnt be the same. You would have to eat cookies with water and just a jelly sandwich. Crust with no cheese or toppings. I can't wait for them to get married. It is going to be hard to see Amy get married, but Phil has always been excepted by me and everyone else, I never questioned him or his feelings for Amy. He is one of us now and I love him like the rest of my friends/gang. Amy and Holly are like the sisters I always wanted. I have a sister but I am not as close with her. And Phil is like the clean cut brother I always wanted but never had. Instead im stuck with the dirty bad see brother who can't get his life together at 32.
Fred quit smoking. I have to say I am very proud of him for doing this. A few days ago we had a break through. Alot of stuff was said but I think It was all meant to be said. He is a great person and sometimes I think I take him for granted. He is one of the smartest people I know...Besides Phil (Fucking smartass) Fred is only 24 and knows so much about everything. Makes me feel stupid at times but I feel I could learn alot from him. He means so much to me and I don't think I tell him more than I should. I don't know what I would do without him.
In Other news, I am getting my hair cut tomorrow at 3:30. I don't know if I want to try something new or just go with the same old thing. I think I am in desperate need of a change. Which calls for breaking down and spending some money for some new clothes too. Im just tired of feeling down all the time because of the way I look. I can never do anything with my hair and I never want to even leave the house. I never use to be like this. I remember back in the days when I would goto the bars I would have so much fun. People would look at me while I was out and it made me feel so good about myself. I think I need a boost. People are always telling me I am cute but I just don't believe it anymore. I feel I am getting older and there is only room for the younger groups. Thank god I can pass as 17 or 18....I think I am going to be 21 again. That was a pretty good age.
I have a wedding to goto This friday with Fred. One of his oldest friends from high school is getting married at Pine Knob mansion in Clarkston. It should be fun. The last wedding we went to 2 months ago was alot of fun. I just hope I am not hung over the next day. I have to work at the burton store all day. And then sunday I have to work at the waterford store all day. Oh well...It should be worth it.
I really hope this season they come out with some new shows that are good. Im tired of all these shitty shows that come out on Tv and get bad ratings. I am so glad the OC is only on the 3rd season. I am actually sad that OAF is over with. Fred and I have been watching this past season and we only have a few episodes left. Then what? Its over with forever. Just Like Buffy....Holly, Jon and I were so sad when season 7 of Buffy ended. OAF has been on since December of 1999. It has to be one of my all time fav shows. Not because I am gay. I just feel like I can relate with alot of the things they go through. Alot of the people in the show grew on me. And its going to be hard to think its over with.
I called today and made an appointment for the Dermatologist for Tuesday August 30th. I am hoping he will be able to pinpoint what is going on with my body and these discusting bumps all over. I would like to get back out into the world and actually have some fun before I die. Later that night is the Coldplay Concert at DTE with Holly and Jen Yeager. That should fun. Coldplay has always had an effect on me....That voice for some reason can always either get me moving or get me worked up. They sing with such passion and its nothing like all the other artists out there. Im excited for the concert. Holly got the tickets awhile ago. She paid 80 bucks a ticket. I guess I should give her the money I owe her. Either I forget when I see her or she is working. I am sure I will end up just giving it to her the day of the concert (In Cash) Of course so she can blow it all on beer.
I miss Amy alot. Its hard to talk to her and not think she is so far away. I keep thinking something will open up here for Phil and they can move back. But they both have it really good in Texas. And they both love it. Of course they miss their friends and family. People they grew up with and shared memories with. But I think they both need this. Amy has never done anything this drastic in her life. It just shows how much she loves Phil. And I don't believe Phil has ever done anything this drastic. They make a good team. I don't know what life would be like without Amy and Phil together. It just sounds weird and I could never picture it. They are like peanut butter and Jelly? Milk and Cookies? Cheese and Pizza? You get the idea. They cannot be seperated. If you seperate them then the world wouldnt be the same. You would have to eat cookies with water and just a jelly sandwich. Crust with no cheese or toppings. I can't wait for them to get married. It is going to be hard to see Amy get married, but Phil has always been excepted by me and everyone else, I never questioned him or his feelings for Amy. He is one of us now and I love him like the rest of my friends/gang. Amy and Holly are like the sisters I always wanted. I have a sister but I am not as close with her. And Phil is like the clean cut brother I always wanted but never had. Instead im stuck with the dirty bad see brother who can't get his life together at 32.
Fred quit smoking. I have to say I am very proud of him for doing this. A few days ago we had a break through. Alot of stuff was said but I think It was all meant to be said. He is a great person and sometimes I think I take him for granted. He is one of the smartest people I know...Besides Phil (Fucking smartass) Fred is only 24 and knows so much about everything. Makes me feel stupid at times but I feel I could learn alot from him. He means so much to me and I don't think I tell him more than I should. I don't know what I would do without him.