Longest day ever
Yesterday was just one of those days I would like to erase. Pretend like it never happened. But I can't. It all started when I had to wake up..I was tired from the long weekend and my back was killing me from my little accident with Holly and her foot or whatever she kicked me with in the back. Still I told myself I have to goto work. So I got ready for work and went upstairs. My parents were sitting there. My mom finally made an appointment to goto the doctors to see why she has been feeling the way she has lately. The past 3 weeks she has been having a hard time breathing, She doesnt want to leave the house, She is always weak and barley eats. I guess what I told her was not true. I told her she needs to go talk to someone about everything that has been going on in her life in the past couple months. I went to work and had to drive 45 mins in the nasty shitty rain. I got to work and had a hard time doing anything because of my back/tail bone. I just sat there waiting for my mom to call and tell me what the Doctor said. Fianlly I got a Call on my cell phone....it said "Mom Cell" I answered saying "Hey, how did it go?" My dad responded with "what do you think" So he said they called an Ambulance and they came and took my mom to St.Joe's Mercy Oakland. Aparently the reason she has not been able to breathe was because her Kidney's are shutting down(this is not the first time) The Doctor said they are filling with fluids. Usually when this happens, My moms feet and legs swell from all the fluids in her body. And she has to take water pills to get it all out of her system. Well this time I don't have any idea how but it was all in her kidneys causing her breathing problems. They also Said Hmm lets see, Congestive heart failure (Umm maybe because she overdosed on her heart medication) Just a thought. 2 pills max a day does not mean 4 or 6 mom. She has been on those pills for as long as I can remember. Her heart beats alot faster than it should, So she has to take a pill every day for the rest of her life to slow it down....SOunds like someone else we know (My sister) And then they said she has pneumonia which is also something not new for her. If she would only take care of herself and stop thinking about everyone else. She wouldnt be so run down all the time. So yesterday was kinda hard to do the whole work thing. But I got through it....Got something to eat before I got home.....Got home around 9ish and talked to my dad for awhile about everything. And then called my mom....Kinda wish I didnt. I do not do good with Hospitals at all..Myself, yeah im fine but I can't handle to see someone so close to me in that place. She could barley even talk on the phone and couldnt stop crying because she wanted to be home. Good thing though she had to let me go because a nurse came in with some sort of shots for her (2) So I came down in my room and talked to Amy for awhile about everything.....My mom, Her moving to Texas, The wedding. Got off the phone with her, Popped some pills and called Fred. Talked to him. Actually told him some things about myself I am glad I did. Things that I fear will drive him away from me. So I figure I have to tell him or else one day something might happen with me and he will freak out. Things seem different with him. He is to good to me. I know everyone always said I deserve someone who can treat me like a prince but I didn't think It would ever happen....I guess that goes to show how much I really know huh? lol. Oh well I have to go take the dogs out and then im going to jump in the shower. See ya