"I'm not going to be that girl that your forget about..."
So I am pulling it together. That is what I always do. What I have to do. It would be great to be all...."oooh, I'm head over heels for you" but alas we don't live in a world that works that way. No. No siree-bob. No one has time to just pine away, hoping that the the other person will have a great awakening and love the other person. This is not a Jane Austen movie (however much I GREATLY enjoy those). People who say, "If it is meant to be, it will" are just rather coo-coo in my book. That statement works for many things, but not everything. This summer has been amazing and meant so much to me. I have learned a great deal. I have had great loves and I have a feeling will feel great sorrow before the summer is out, but...the keyword being but...it will all be worth it. All of it. LIfe is about LEARNING. The whole thing is just one big learning experience. If you are not learning and you are just practicing...well that is no life at all. Make mistakes, take something too far, say too much, show your heart, go for it. Learn. And don't just pass me off without thought. I know that living a life this way is not easy. It hurts a lot of times, but it also yields some great moments...some really great moments. So be prepared for the worse, know that it exists and then throw it to the wind. You can make it through this. I can make it through this. Everyone can make it through something that looks/feels like a mountain. I have confidence. I do. I just have to keep telling myself that. Oh the life I live :)