The cycles we skip
Ummm, alright.
Im feeling a lot better as compared to the previous two nights. Last night was an emotional downfall for me, it took me all fucking day to recover, but i did and i am back to my laugh ass self.
Elise, i just wanted you to know that last night you made me feel like i was stuck in a room with no doors. You bad mouthed people i care about and i know you are upset with them, but i think you could have the courtesy to not degrade them like you are in my presence. I also feel as though you instigated things that shouldnt have happened. Which is fine if you didnt think you did. Its just, sometimes i feel like you dont really care about any of this, because when it is bruised and broken you can just go back to lowell and forget everything. However this is all i have. My friends are all i have. Just know, this is just what i think at times. I dont hate you. Im just trying to understand you. And them, And keep my cool at the same time.
Kandyce, sweetness. Im sorry i got so pushy on the phone last night. i was really upset. if you couldnt tell i was upset that entire night and when i just wanted to leave, my car wouldnt start and then i called josh and there were arrangement problems and then when he gets there carrie gets there, everything was just a fucking mess. However, i do think you are being too opinionated in this situation. You have only heard one side of everything that is happening. I dont think thats fair at all for anyone. How can you just trust what one person is saying when everything is as fucked as it is. But im trying to remain as peaceful as i can be, and i dont think there is any reason for there to be bad blood between us. Shall we cease and move on?
Well that feels better.
So tonight:
I had Ben out of his house for 3+ hours. It was awesome-tastic. We picked up Vaughn, Kali, and Maggie. I pulled on to their road to pick them up and when i went to go turn around out of someones driveway this old fucker came running at us with a flashnight and he hit my car, it was the scariest moment of the night. Went to go see Shaun at North Falmouth Elementary. Ben and i left them there and came back here to play with fire but there was a chaperone to ruin the fun. Instead i tortured him with Degrassi. Mwahaha. Then we went back out to pick them up. They werent there, rather they were at Teaticket Elementary with Josh, Steve, and Jay. So we go to teaticket and swing and sing songs. Margret is da bomb. We are going to start a rap group. And Kali tackles boys. Josh took off his pants, we swung on the swings, then decided to go to the Oroukes to see drunken girls. On the way there, there was a possum in the road and maggie and i pooped our pants and swerved all around the place. THENNNN i brought Jay home. Maggie told everyone ben and i had sex, so we decided after sex i should call him gay. Brought him home after complaints about my car because he's fucking dutch and likes chocolate milk. and that was about it.
I hope they are having fun in vermont.
I really really miss phoebe. I just need. her. and her bomb anal sex.
Tomorrow is laura's party. Ell's broadway, and then he's supposed to stay over. thats if he still wants to.
Mad peeps should call anyways.
I like using RUBBER BAND MAN. CRAZY LIKE AN AFRIKAN language.
Call me. 1-508-648-8959
Nizzle.
"funny feeling ive got intuition"
_love to hate, hate to me_
Im feeling a lot better as compared to the previous two nights. Last night was an emotional downfall for me, it took me all fucking day to recover, but i did and i am back to my laugh ass self.
Elise, i just wanted you to know that last night you made me feel like i was stuck in a room with no doors. You bad mouthed people i care about and i know you are upset with them, but i think you could have the courtesy to not degrade them like you are in my presence. I also feel as though you instigated things that shouldnt have happened. Which is fine if you didnt think you did. Its just, sometimes i feel like you dont really care about any of this, because when it is bruised and broken you can just go back to lowell and forget everything. However this is all i have. My friends are all i have. Just know, this is just what i think at times. I dont hate you. Im just trying to understand you. And them, And keep my cool at the same time.
Kandyce, sweetness. Im sorry i got so pushy on the phone last night. i was really upset. if you couldnt tell i was upset that entire night and when i just wanted to leave, my car wouldnt start and then i called josh and there were arrangement problems and then when he gets there carrie gets there, everything was just a fucking mess. However, i do think you are being too opinionated in this situation. You have only heard one side of everything that is happening. I dont think thats fair at all for anyone. How can you just trust what one person is saying when everything is as fucked as it is. But im trying to remain as peaceful as i can be, and i dont think there is any reason for there to be bad blood between us. Shall we cease and move on?
Well that feels better.
So tonight:
I had Ben out of his house for 3+ hours. It was awesome-tastic. We picked up Vaughn, Kali, and Maggie. I pulled on to their road to pick them up and when i went to go turn around out of someones driveway this old fucker came running at us with a flashnight and he hit my car, it was the scariest moment of the night. Went to go see Shaun at North Falmouth Elementary. Ben and i left them there and came back here to play with fire but there was a chaperone to ruin the fun. Instead i tortured him with Degrassi. Mwahaha. Then we went back out to pick them up. They werent there, rather they were at Teaticket Elementary with Josh, Steve, and Jay. So we go to teaticket and swing and sing songs. Margret is da bomb. We are going to start a rap group. And Kali tackles boys. Josh took off his pants, we swung on the swings, then decided to go to the Oroukes to see drunken girls. On the way there, there was a possum in the road and maggie and i pooped our pants and swerved all around the place. THENNNN i brought Jay home. Maggie told everyone ben and i had sex, so we decided after sex i should call him gay. Brought him home after complaints about my car because he's fucking dutch and likes chocolate milk. and that was about it.
I hope they are having fun in vermont.
I really really miss phoebe. I just need. her. and her bomb anal sex.
Tomorrow is laura's party. Ell's broadway, and then he's supposed to stay over. thats if he still wants to.
Mad peeps should call anyways.
I like using RUBBER BAND MAN. CRAZY LIKE AN AFRIKAN language.
Call me. 1-508-648-8959
Nizzle.
"funny feeling ive got intuition"
_love to hate, hate to me_