The One With The Fest
It's 3;16 on Sunday morning of The Fest 7. I'm so happy and so sad at the same time. I saw Paul Baribeau and Matty Pop Chart and Laura Stevenson today. Fake Problems and O Pioneers! and Polar Bear Club and Bomb the Music Industry today. Slingshot Dakota and Madeline and Dave Dondero today. The Fest last year was great, but I don't remember feeling like this. I feel empty and sad that it's almost over and I don't really know how to process it. I have a big pile of CDs next to me, and tomorrow morning Sean and his friends are leaving, and I don't have anyone to walk around with and see all the bands that I want to go and see. It's sad and stuff.
I love my friends and life here. I love seeing things like this. Hearing a song and then wishing that you were best friends with the singer is a good feeling, but at the same time kind of not, because they're RIGHT THERE. I could be friends with them. But sometimes I am not a very outgoing person, and I am much more awkward than I want to be.
I don't know what i am going to do when my friends graduate, and I am very scared that when they leave, I will have no one to cling to and be happy with. I need to strengthen ties with friends that I have not spoken to in a while, and branch out to make new friends. I can do it, it's just hard and scary.
To be honest, I know why I feel kind of sad and empty. It's a very silly reason though, and I need to step away from it right now because I think that it might be very dangerous. I'm sorry that I often take something and apply it to an idea of what I think should be true or worse, what I want to be true. That's not good at all. I am full of terrible things, keep away from me.
I'm having a wonderful time and I love The Fest. There will always be somewhere for me in Gainesville on this weekend.
I love my friends and life here. I love seeing things like this. Hearing a song and then wishing that you were best friends with the singer is a good feeling, but at the same time kind of not, because they're RIGHT THERE. I could be friends with them. But sometimes I am not a very outgoing person, and I am much more awkward than I want to be.
I don't know what i am going to do when my friends graduate, and I am very scared that when they leave, I will have no one to cling to and be happy with. I need to strengthen ties with friends that I have not spoken to in a while, and branch out to make new friends. I can do it, it's just hard and scary.
To be honest, I know why I feel kind of sad and empty. It's a very silly reason though, and I need to step away from it right now because I think that it might be very dangerous. I'm sorry that I often take something and apply it to an idea of what I think should be true or worse, what I want to be true. That's not good at all. I am full of terrible things, keep away from me.
I'm having a wonderful time and I love The Fest. There will always be somewhere for me in Gainesville on this weekend.