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but I can't help the feeling, I could blow through the ceiling
I don't know how I remain convinced that even though I can't get ahold of my life when I need to, I will somehow miraculously be able to when every possible incentive is gone.
I can't keep letting myself tear myself in so many different directions. I need to run away and travel and invest myself in that, or I need to plan for my future and invest myself in that. My life until this point has been a poorly unguided slow flow downhill. I don't want to be stuck. I don't want to wait until it is too late. I don't want to miss out.
It's time for me to make some decisions.
I don't know how I remain convinced that even though I can't get ahold of my life when I need to, I will somehow miraculously be able to when every possible incentive is gone.
I can't keep letting myself tear myself in so many different directions. I need to run away and travel and invest myself in that, or I need to plan for my future and invest myself in that. My life until this point has been a poorly unguided slow flow downhill. I don't want to be stuck. I don't want to wait until it is too late. I don't want to miss out.
It's time for me to make some decisions.