Disclaimer: Huge vent...Bound to piss off everyone...Deal with it...

[fabledhero316]

I really don't care anymore. The only thing that is of any concern with me right now is school because any focus off of that is going to kill my grade. I'm not as bad ass at school as I thought I was, nor am I anywhere close to the calibur that my friends seem to be at. I can't seem to talk to anyone anymore because I feel like I have nothing to

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[metalhero]

Nick, you honestly need to vent more. I think you will be much calmer then. And stop doubting yourself. I know, I KNOW, it's the pot calling the kettle black here, but I FEEL where you are coming from, and I see in you problems I have seen in myself in the past and still see to this day.

Like you said, you need to have a little more faith in YOU, and don't worry about other people's fucking opinions so much. And don't let Bill bring you down about anything, I mean yeah you need to experience things firsthand before you can express a valid opinion about them but EVERYONE grows up at different speeds and experiences different things. Think about the things that you've experienced that neither Bill nor many others have. You seem to experience the sort of peace that true faith can bring that I honestly envy.

But there comes a time, my friend, when you just have to say "fuck it," do your own thing, and then get back to everyone ON YOUR OWN TIME. And that's not saying you need to recklessly abandon your friends, that's just saying that there is a TIME and PLACE to look out for number 1 and it looks like that times is now for you. And no one will begrudge you for it, NO ONE has a right to, because you know what? WE'VE ALL DONE IT.

I was going to say I hope this makes sense, but I KNOW it makes sense because I KNOW I have been where you are and I have felt what you feel and I know you trust me. I trust you. So trust yourself.

[fabledhero316]

Oh thank God, someone got it. Thanks dude, and I still hope to see you tomorrow.