its been a while
soo the semester at ohlone is almost over and summer is almost here and i've just been looking back on everything i feel like i really fucked up, i used too get up at like 5 to get too zero period at hs at 6 and now i have trouble gettin up at 11 for my classes i've missed so many days i think im gonna fail my math class which sucks because i know that if i woulda actually gotten up and went i coulda gotten an A but i just fucked up and got lazy, i dont know why its become so hard for me to get up latley i just feel unmotivated too do anything i just wanna sleep. I'll know that i have homework due the next day but i just keep telling my self oh i have plenty of time too do it and then it comes down too the last minutes and im just like its too much too do ill just turn it in late, i dont know why im in state of mind now, but if i really wanna go somewhere im really gonna have too pull my self out of it and pay more attention in school, i've been so unmotivated that i know that i need a job yet i dont wanna go out and try, ive applied at like 2 places and thats it...if only i had someone too push me and get me motivated i know id do so much better guess im gonna have too do it my self though....mannnn its gonna be hard changing this mind set