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it's a bizarre time of year. winter, christmas. all of it. it's not a good time to start relationships. people are vulnerable. lonelier than usual. and in some sort of sick, twisted circle it's the only time of year i get a little (okay maybe a lot) desperate for one.
im not really a relationship girl. im just not the kind of girl who's constantly in search of a relationship. i'm pretty independent. i don't put up with bullshit-- and so many of the guys are bullshit. i'm opinionated and harsh and that can make me hard to get along with and most guys arent willing to work for anything and im not willing to change.. so many relationships in my age bracket are mediocre, something to fill the time.. and i've got plenty of great things to fill my time-- so i need nothing mediocre.
but christmas time.. it's different. my standards are still quite high and nothing really changes about all the above stated i just become more hopeful that something more than mediocre that someone whos not bullshit will come along.
alas only in my mind and movies like Love Actually is this time of year different from the rest of it.
so nothing will change and in january i will feel fine...
and crushes on anderson cooper and jon stewart will once again be enough to tide me over.
im not really a relationship girl. im just not the kind of girl who's constantly in search of a relationship. i'm pretty independent. i don't put up with bullshit-- and so many of the guys are bullshit. i'm opinionated and harsh and that can make me hard to get along with and most guys arent willing to work for anything and im not willing to change.. so many relationships in my age bracket are mediocre, something to fill the time.. and i've got plenty of great things to fill my time-- so i need nothing mediocre.
but christmas time.. it's different. my standards are still quite high and nothing really changes about all the above stated i just become more hopeful that something more than mediocre that someone whos not bullshit will come along.
alas only in my mind and movies like Love Actually is this time of year different from the rest of it.
so nothing will change and in january i will feel fine...
and crushes on anderson cooper and jon stewart will once again be enough to tide me over.