Grrrrr......
Ok, ok. I HAVE to get out of here. This place is just driving me CRAZY :S I just... I just can't stand it here anymore. It's everything - the place, the lack of stuff to do, the cruddy weather... the work I haven't done yet.... the fact that I know Annaliese is somewhere in Devon too and won't see her, and the fact that I probably won't get to see AN?Y of my friends until we start school again.... and that fact that that is just so SOON.... oh, it's all a bit crud really. Oh, and my Mum. Just to add to that short list. We shouldn't spend so much time together - it's just not good for me. At all. I'd say that spending a whole week with her is too stressful, but then I spend week upon week upon week with her, just us two living together.... so it's obviously cope-able. I think just usually we're not in the same room, and that's how it works. The most time we ever spend in the same place as each other is at the crack of dawn going to school (NEVER a good time to sit down with me) and coming hoe from school. Not only is it SUCH a JOY to spend this time with her in the car (BIG mistake if you want a nice conversation) but I mean, I've just got out of SCHOOL - how can I be in a particularly nice mood after that? And anyways, unless the bus route changes this year, I'm taking the bus home. I don't think I have to pay for it - they're not supposed to bve able to refuse you a ride home, right? - but there's a stop right by Uxbridge station (also the one Maria gets so I will NEVER miss it :D ) so I can either take a public bus home from there, or (if I fancy a nice long walk) take the train down to Ickenham station. Sorted. Dunno why I never got round to doing that last year.... Shame the pick up in Uxbridge in the morning is in a different place, huh?
ANYways, I just.... I cannot do this for much longer. I mean, at home we watch different shows in different rooms, I'm either doing my work in the study or my room or the dining room, whilst she's doing NOTHING (and complaining about being tred - urgh) and I mean.... we even eat in separate rooms (not good according to Miss Higgins trying to be cousellor of the year back in year 8.... before leaving school and going off with Mr....what was his name? Anyway, we didn't have to hear about that in Sex Ed. Ew : P ). It's just... usally it's not so bad, cuz we only spend a little time actually in each others company..... and half the month I try to avoid her anyway :S
I think I'm just completelt stressing out... which you shouldn't be doing on holiday. I've just been stripped of all communication, and I think that's waht's making the whole thing a whole lot WORSE. I mean, no internet (so no emails, no MSN [ ): ] ) and no signal, so I only have texts when I'm halfway up a flipping hill, or standing on the edge of a cliff.... I just.... I miss everyone );
I wanna go home.
On the plus side though, I have got part of Katie, Jess and Annaliese's birthday presents, and half the Christmas presents I'll need to buy (for my friends, anyways), sit happily in the knowledge that this is the last (longest) I will ever spend with a parent - EVER (unless Mum wins a cruise to somewhere like Barbados when I'm like 20... I won't mind going too much then ; ) ) - ....and I did get to see various relatives on the way here... which is always nice ^_^
ANYways, I just.... I cannot do this for much longer. I mean, at home we watch different shows in different rooms, I'm either doing my work in the study or my room or the dining room, whilst she's doing NOTHING (and complaining about being tred - urgh) and I mean.... we even eat in separate rooms (not good according to Miss Higgins trying to be cousellor of the year back in year 8.... before leaving school and going off with Mr....what was his name? Anyway, we didn't have to hear about that in Sex Ed. Ew : P ). It's just... usally it's not so bad, cuz we only spend a little time actually in each others company..... and half the month I try to avoid her anyway :S
I think I'm just completelt stressing out... which you shouldn't be doing on holiday. I've just been stripped of all communication, and I think that's waht's making the whole thing a whole lot WORSE. I mean, no internet (so no emails, no MSN [ ): ] ) and no signal, so I only have texts when I'm halfway up a flipping hill, or standing on the edge of a cliff.... I just.... I miss everyone );
I wanna go home.
On the plus side though, I have got part of Katie, Jess and Annaliese's birthday presents, and half the Christmas presents I'll need to buy (for my friends, anyways), sit happily in the knowledge that this is the last (longest) I will ever spend with a parent - EVER (unless Mum wins a cruise to somewhere like Barbados when I'm like 20... I won't mind going too much then ; ) ) - ....and I did get to see various relatives on the way here... which is always nice ^_^