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things can't go rite all the time and bad news comes in more than threes i wish i hadn't said that i wish he hadn't read it didn't respond from a bed in halifax and missing text messages why not go out for a walk why not tune a score because i'm here and i'm sore i'm thinking about thinking positive staying positive when everything's scattered across the floor and still trying to be positive for him (halifax, april)
twisted over on the floor the toilet from before i wish i wasn't able to wish to think of things i didn't see or didn't feel i'm flying under over the the sea wa-wa-wa-wa-water i'm washing on i'm hoping on swimming on wa-wa-wa-wa-wa-water it's the only way the fresh as clean so dope as me and dope inside the ways to swell the swollen belly the eating poor i don't know what to feed myself anymore the reverse nervousness that i feel in this having done the last thing on stage for a long long time i'm out on the line i felt i was out on the line out of lines and here is where and there is near and there is where i will not shall not and YET and STILL wishing still wishing wish i was without wishes easy easy make it happen let it out rocky and rolly and roll and poll and paul and that single seat that desk in class and never ever thought about ass but skinny knock-kneed fruits of all kind of all baskets of climbing up the sides of boats he rotes he wrotes he boats and floats and think of me i bet he don't where is he now? where is he now? question, pause thinking back to dirty paws erotic stories i wrote about you i tired you out you tired me too it blew thinking only about you those paws those mits and invisibility while she was having all of it all inside and then on the out the best in doubt the soft and shout to twist on the floor the cold tile old towels underneath and there go all my favourite foods undigested just like you i'm in and why i'm not 100% i just don't know my health it went where does it go i'm still WISHING for him to know me just to feel me as a girl or as a boy or somewhere inside that atmosphere of you and me and silly stares.
twisted over on the floor the toilet from before i wish i wasn't able to wish to think of things i didn't see or didn't feel i'm flying under over the the sea wa-wa-wa-wa-water i'm washing on i'm hoping on swimming on wa-wa-wa-wa-wa-water it's the only way the fresh as clean so dope as me and dope inside the ways to swell the swollen belly the eating poor i don't know what to feed myself anymore the reverse nervousness that i feel in this having done the last thing on stage for a long long time i'm out on the line i felt i was out on the line out of lines and here is where and there is near and there is where i will not shall not and YET and STILL wishing still wishing wish i was without wishes easy easy make it happen let it out rocky and rolly and roll and poll and paul and that single seat that desk in class and never ever thought about ass but skinny knock-kneed fruits of all kind of all baskets of climbing up the sides of boats he rotes he wrotes he boats and floats and think of me i bet he don't where is he now? where is he now? question, pause thinking back to dirty paws erotic stories i wrote about you i tired you out you tired me too it blew thinking only about you those paws those mits and invisibility while she was having all of it all inside and then on the out the best in doubt the soft and shout to twist on the floor the cold tile old towels underneath and there go all my favourite foods undigested just like you i'm in and why i'm not 100% i just don't know my health it went where does it go i'm still WISHING for him to know me just to feel me as a girl or as a boy or somewhere inside that atmosphere of you and me and silly stares.