PART TWO
up adcore
i can't stop crying right now. it's so hard to type, even... i'm missing keys because i feel my fingers are weaker and eyes are too blurry with tears... i'm actually talking to delbert in ym. this is the conversation i've always dreaded... people have always expected me to run for president and now that i simply need to say yes i will and start doing on the requirements...
WHY CAN'T I DO IT?
it's so hard when you're too insecure and too afraid (now also, so afraid). it's so hard when you like/love it but you think you're not enough.
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fa: "i am AWARE that people and almost everyone expect me to run, pero kasi, i want to find it in myself to want it and run for it... hindi yung dahil i'm expected to do so and wala na kasing iba... kung gusto lang, gusto ko naman eh, but
i feel totally pressured that i'll be coming after gab and you... and i'm not a SUPER student na accomplished and all; i'm just average and i'm afraid people will think adcore will become WEAKER because of ME."
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delbert: "each president had his own challenge, fa... si gab to start it... ako, as we all know, to validate adcore in cba... sayo... ... ... ...
pressure talaga maging head ng org, pero you know what got me through it all? simple lang- kayo VPs ko. mas nakakatakot nga na di ko man lang kayo kakilala before tapos di pa ako magaling mag connect with people... ... ..."
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fa: "delbert wag kayo aalis..."
(this message was recurrent for uncountable times in our conversation)
delbert: "don't worry andyan parin ako... ym or call away lang ako chaka ikaw, alam mo bahay ko... don't worry. kayang kaya mo yan, i'm excited to have you as the next president talaga. di na gwapo next adcore president..."
fa: "gago ka maganda kaya ako!"
delbert: "oo nga, maganda na tsaka hot pa... continue naten na hottest execore ang adcore lalo na presidents."
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i'm writing delbert a mail. i'm writing myself a letter. i am so afraid and totally afraid...
i can't stop crying right now. it's so hard to type, even... i'm missing keys because i feel my fingers are weaker and eyes are too blurry with tears... i'm actually talking to delbert in ym. this is the conversation i've always dreaded... people have always expected me to run for president and now that i simply need to say yes i will and start doing on the requirements...
WHY CAN'T I DO IT?
it's so hard when you're too insecure and too afraid (now also, so afraid). it's so hard when you like/love it but you think you're not enough.
---
fa: "i am AWARE that people and almost everyone expect me to run, pero kasi, i want to find it in myself to want it and run for it... hindi yung dahil i'm expected to do so and wala na kasing iba... kung gusto lang, gusto ko naman eh, but
i feel totally pressured that i'll be coming after gab and you... and i'm not a SUPER student na accomplished and all; i'm just average and i'm afraid people will think adcore will become WEAKER because of ME."
---
delbert: "each president had his own challenge, fa... si gab to start it... ako, as we all know, to validate adcore in cba... sayo... ... ... ...
pressure talaga maging head ng org, pero you know what got me through it all? simple lang- kayo VPs ko. mas nakakatakot nga na di ko man lang kayo kakilala before tapos di pa ako magaling mag connect with people... ... ..."
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fa: "delbert wag kayo aalis..."
(this message was recurrent for uncountable times in our conversation)
delbert: "don't worry andyan parin ako... ym or call away lang ako chaka ikaw, alam mo bahay ko... don't worry. kayang kaya mo yan, i'm excited to have you as the next president talaga. di na gwapo next adcore president..."
fa: "gago ka maganda kaya ako!"
delbert: "oo nga, maganda na tsaka hot pa... continue naten na hottest execore ang adcore lalo na presidents."
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i'm writing delbert a mail. i'm writing myself a letter. i am so afraid and totally afraid...