(no subject)
So i just read my last entry, and i couldnt help but to cry like a little baby. i miss it so much there and i would give anything to go back. my dad, to my suprise, understands. for the past couple of weeks i have actually been really depressed that i will never be able to go back, ever, and i basically died all over. then my dad and i, had a real conversation, and him and my mom agreed a while ago that if the economy was good, we could go as a family. but for somereason, i have a feeling that that wouldnt happen. so i asked my dad if there was any way if i helped pay and all that i could go back again. and he said that if i get good grades, and my attitude is good and my like.. social well being is good then i can go, then my mom was like IF the economy is good. and my dad goes, i dont care how good or bad the economy is, if i you live up to it, i promise that i will find a way to get you there. i basically died and wanted to hug him, but we dont have that kinda relationship instead i just gave him a little smiled, said how much it meant to me, and then went up stairs and cried for about an hour.. this weekend was alright. me and kara went to TJ's after the game. jamie dropped us off WAY before nick and everyone got there, including TJ, so me and kara layed on the side walk in front of tj's house and just looked up at the stars, found my vagina like old times, then just talked about how much we missed italy and how things willnever be the same today we were talking about how in 2009 (year we graduate) my grandma always promised me that if i got alll good grades, and was drug free, she would buy me and a friend a round trip ticket to anywhere in the world. so we both got super excited considering, we for sure are going to san vito lo capo in 2009, and i honestly cannot wait and im way too excited for something thats a little less than 3 years away. whatever, at least i have a purpose for living another 3 years..anyways so finally TJ and them got there and his mom gave me the biggest hug.. i love her.. shes amazing.. then me and teej cleaned out the hookah and we had that going then gina knocked it over, and it burnt the carpet and yah.. he was in a bad mood after that, then someone knocked it over again! and he was super pissed and kicked everyone out.. i helped him clean up and then dan took me to frankys.. and then basel took us home.. cuase i had a headache.. umm then yesterday i went to armada it was good times as usual.. i came home and cleaned and did homework then i made eddie lunch and then i made dinner and hten i did the dishes and now here i am i guess im in a good mood and my hopes are high for next summer.. but it wont come soon enoughhhhhhh!!!!!! umm.. tomorrow i have a history test.. im a little orried but whatever umm.. my love life pretty much blows but that isnt anything new.. im sick of writing.. but i will be updating more i think.. soo yepp kbye