Weeks away, and..?
I'm feeling a little off today, and maybe that's just it. But my gut feel tells me that it's not the end of it. I'm still hoping that there's nothing more to this, and it's just the weather that's keeping me from being jumpy. Yes, I am usually jumpy, very jumpy.
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Probably it's the lack of motivation, or something that could sustain THE motivation. Or perhaps, it's just the thought that the end is drawing near - and the idea is quite unsettling. Uncertainty and doubts scare me. The thought of working is still ambiguous. I still can't see myself working, say in the Makati District or in some place that offers the same. And i just don't know why I'm still stuck inside my own little world, thinking that this will never end. But the harsh reality just had to nudge me a little too late. Now I'm here, weeks away from finishing this four-year course. And i'm still not ready.
A little hard punch on the head might be the ultimate jumpstart, but it isn't that easy and simple. But I'm running out of ideas, so maybe, just maybe I'll settle for that one in the absence of a better idea.
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Probably it's the lack of motivation, or something that could sustain THE motivation. Or perhaps, it's just the thought that the end is drawing near - and the idea is quite unsettling. Uncertainty and doubts scare me. The thought of working is still ambiguous. I still can't see myself working, say in the Makati District or in some place that offers the same. And i just don't know why I'm still stuck inside my own little world, thinking that this will never end. But the harsh reality just had to nudge me a little too late. Now I'm here, weeks away from finishing this four-year course. And i'm still not ready.
A little hard punch on the head might be the ultimate jumpstart, but it isn't that easy and simple. But I'm running out of ideas, so maybe, just maybe I'll settle for that one in the absence of a better idea.