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i officially dislike everyone.
the only people who havent fucked me over yet are nicole carol and hopefully johnny....and well, i fucking love them to death and im very very thankful they have been there for me even though im annoying and immature at times..and im sure i can be a big ol' pain in the ass. haha
but never the less they have still been there.
...and i can actually trust them completely.
im done being open about my emotions and shit that goes on in my life.
im sick of telling people my secrets and feelings and sharing information about myself and just getting backstabbed and walked all over.
it seems that when you tell someone (who you think you trust) your whole life story, its easy for them to use everything against you.
they have an easy way of fucking you over whenever they want.
they know everything about you....your weak points, things that make you mad or things that make you breakdown inside....things that hurt you the most....the things that trigger your deepest emotions. and they have the power to use that against you whenever or however they want.
they can take away what you loved the most.
thats what ive learned and it sucks i had to learn that the hard way but shit happens.
im really over making new friends....i told myself that about a year ago....i love all my friends that i had, i started out with a handful of people who i really thought i could trust with my life....i told them ide be there for them forever and i stick to my word.
as time went by, some people decided they didnt want me to be around for them.
they might not have said it in that way but you get the point.
well now its narrowed down to a couple friends....and im still not planning to make anymore.
i dont have time to find out whether i can trust new people or not.
i have some people i cant still trust and thats all i need, right?
i dont need to be able to trust the whole world.
if over time everyone decides they dont want me around, then you know what...thats fine.
i'll have to learn how to be happy alone.
i still think its never to late to fix a broken friendship....as long as its not completely ruined.
things get fucked up..thats just life...but theres always a way to fix it.
thats why we were born with brains and the ability to work things out....you know...problem solving skills.
as long as you havent broken the trust.
just keep that in mind.
so if things go completely down the drain...dont say it was my fault, cuz i put it out there for everyone to see.
im willing to change for the better and fix anything thats fucked up...whether its my fault or yours.
thats all i have to say for right now.
oh and to my friends i still have and who plan to stick with me til the end....thanks...i really do love you.
...and when i say i love you, i mean it....i dont mean "oh, i'll love you for now but in a few months or a year or so, i'll be ready to get rid of you.." ...nah fuck that. friends arent trash...i fucking love you and im here for you as long as you're here for me.
:]
<3
the only people who havent fucked me over yet are nicole carol and hopefully johnny....and well, i fucking love them to death and im very very thankful they have been there for me even though im annoying and immature at times..and im sure i can be a big ol' pain in the ass. haha
but never the less they have still been there.
...and i can actually trust them completely.
im done being open about my emotions and shit that goes on in my life.
im sick of telling people my secrets and feelings and sharing information about myself and just getting backstabbed and walked all over.
it seems that when you tell someone (who you think you trust) your whole life story, its easy for them to use everything against you.
they have an easy way of fucking you over whenever they want.
they know everything about you....your weak points, things that make you mad or things that make you breakdown inside....things that hurt you the most....the things that trigger your deepest emotions. and they have the power to use that against you whenever or however they want.
they can take away what you loved the most.
thats what ive learned and it sucks i had to learn that the hard way but shit happens.
im really over making new friends....i told myself that about a year ago....i love all my friends that i had, i started out with a handful of people who i really thought i could trust with my life....i told them ide be there for them forever and i stick to my word.
as time went by, some people decided they didnt want me to be around for them.
they might not have said it in that way but you get the point.
well now its narrowed down to a couple friends....and im still not planning to make anymore.
i dont have time to find out whether i can trust new people or not.
i have some people i cant still trust and thats all i need, right?
i dont need to be able to trust the whole world.
if over time everyone decides they dont want me around, then you know what...thats fine.
i'll have to learn how to be happy alone.
i still think its never to late to fix a broken friendship....as long as its not completely ruined.
things get fucked up..thats just life...but theres always a way to fix it.
thats why we were born with brains and the ability to work things out....you know...problem solving skills.
as long as you havent broken the trust.
just keep that in mind.
so if things go completely down the drain...dont say it was my fault, cuz i put it out there for everyone to see.
im willing to change for the better and fix anything thats fucked up...whether its my fault or yours.
thats all i have to say for right now.
oh and to my friends i still have and who plan to stick with me til the end....thanks...i really do love you.
...and when i say i love you, i mean it....i dont mean "oh, i'll love you for now but in a few months or a year or so, i'll be ready to get rid of you.." ...nah fuck that. friends arent trash...i fucking love you and im here for you as long as you're here for me.
:]
<3