Stop crying your heart out
So now I guess it is time to rewind the story, let's say 8 months back from now on.
Because "now" is already different story, now I am sitting in a shabby hotel in a town I grew up and not ashamed to admit I cannot help crying like a little girl having no idea about tomorrow, but this "now" will be later, the future is now, so I leave it in peace for a while.
"Now" is significant because finally I have courage to show IT to myself and declare Yes, i made it, I don't know how IT became black and white and how should I have made the timecode dissapear from the bottom right hand corner.
And I really doubt it has any artistic value, it's rather an attempt to say "I am sorry", "wish you were here", "it was fucking great", "karma strikes back" and many other stuff.
The days filmed were like intoxication with joy and tragedy, with doing nothing and doing so many things at the same time. And it seemed hopeless at one time and full of ambitions and dreams of future from the other side. And then you feel embarrased but then you don't care anymore or you do stupid things which turn out to be the greatest things ever. Especially here. Especially now.
just can't fucking sleep and stop selfdestructing and wanting run and run as far as possible.
Because "now" is already different story, now I am sitting in a shabby hotel in a town I grew up and not ashamed to admit I cannot help crying like a little girl having no idea about tomorrow, but this "now" will be later, the future is now, so I leave it in peace for a while.
"Now" is significant because finally I have courage to show IT to myself and declare Yes, i made it, I don't know how IT became black and white and how should I have made the timecode dissapear from the bottom right hand corner.
And I really doubt it has any artistic value, it's rather an attempt to say "I am sorry", "wish you were here", "it was fucking great", "karma strikes back" and many other stuff.
The days filmed were like intoxication with joy and tragedy, with doing nothing and doing so many things at the same time. And it seemed hopeless at one time and full of ambitions and dreams of future from the other side. And then you feel embarrased but then you don't care anymore or you do stupid things which turn out to be the greatest things ever. Especially here. Especially now.
just can't fucking sleep and stop selfdestructing and wanting run and run as far as possible.