Struggle
Title: Struggle
Characters/Pairings: Dean Winchester
Notes/warnings: Passing thoughts of suicide.
I know this sounds like it's from the latest episode of SPN, but I wrote this weeks ago when I was feeling depressed and I only just watched the episode this morning. It makes me happy to think that I have the duo's dynamic and Dean's inner voice right though.
Word Count: 192 words/DRABBLE
Summary (at which I suck): Just a quick little sort of character study on Dean's internal thoughts.
It’s a struggle.
Wake up, find a hunt, get thrown around, battered and bruised, save the day, get kicked out of town, find new crappy motel and start all over again.
Hunting weighs heavily on Dean’s shoulders, this burden he inherited but would rather die than ignore. And damned if that didn’t sound like the better option sometimes.
He could make it quick.
Someone with his skills, hell he could think of 20 ways straight up. But it would never happen. If nothing else Dean Winchester was not a coward.
If he was a little reckless on a hunt, well, that was nobody’s problem but his own.
Sam would berate him, or watch him a little too closely sometimes. But that put his baby brother at risk, and, while hunting was his burden, Sam was his life.
His entire reason for surviving every reckless move he ever made on a hunt, for always waking up, finding that next job.
The hunt was all he knew, but Sam was all Dean needed.
So, yeah, sometimes it was a struggle, but with his brother there it was a struggle he would keep on fighting.
Characters/Pairings: Dean Winchester
Notes/warnings: Passing thoughts of suicide.
I know this sounds like it's from the latest episode of SPN, but I wrote this weeks ago when I was feeling depressed and I only just watched the episode this morning. It makes me happy to think that I have the duo's dynamic and Dean's inner voice right though.
Word Count: 192 words/DRABBLE
Summary (at which I suck): Just a quick little sort of character study on Dean's internal thoughts.
It’s a struggle.
Wake up, find a hunt, get thrown around, battered and bruised, save the day, get kicked out of town, find new crappy motel and start all over again.
Hunting weighs heavily on Dean’s shoulders, this burden he inherited but would rather die than ignore. And damned if that didn’t sound like the better option sometimes.
He could make it quick.
Someone with his skills, hell he could think of 20 ways straight up. But it would never happen. If nothing else Dean Winchester was not a coward.
If he was a little reckless on a hunt, well, that was nobody’s problem but his own.
Sam would berate him, or watch him a little too closely sometimes. But that put his baby brother at risk, and, while hunting was his burden, Sam was his life.
His entire reason for surviving every reckless move he ever made on a hunt, for always waking up, finding that next job.
The hunt was all he knew, but Sam was all Dean needed.
So, yeah, sometimes it was a struggle, but with his brother there it was a struggle he would keep on fighting.