Reporter Returns
I've been gone for a while. I needed to take some time and figure out a few things. The other night was rough. Killing K'lyazar was definitely not in the cards for me beforehand. I just wanted to save Anne, was all. I really wasn't thinking about my own life being in danger. All I could think of was getting to her and keeping him from hurting her. Now she's been acting so strangely. I'll stop by the center and she'll busy herself doing other things. I think it scared her, the whole thing. Seeing me kill something -- even an evil demon -- probably wasn't the best thing to witness.
The truth is, it's hard for me to take, as well. It's been all I can think about lately. I have the blood of another living being on my hands. The night I killed K'lyazar, I just felt this rage inside me. It was like nothing I'd ever felt before. I can still feel it, roiling beneath my skin like an angry shark under the surface of a calm ocean. Damn, that's deep. It frightens me, and makes me wonder: Once you kill someone, does it become an addiction? Does it spin out of control? Is this how Dahmer or Bundy started?
I need to talk to Morrigan. She knows from badness, seeing as how she was like, Queen of All Evil or some such shit. I'm going to Wolfram & Hart tomorrow to put Mom in rehab. I'm tired of this pussyfooting around it. She needs help, more than I am willing to give or can give. I'm tired of dealing with her. She will be put away.
I keep trying to tell myself it's only because she drinks and not because I'm trying to keep her safe from me . . .
The truth is, it's hard for me to take, as well. It's been all I can think about lately. I have the blood of another living being on my hands. The night I killed K'lyazar, I just felt this rage inside me. It was like nothing I'd ever felt before. I can still feel it, roiling beneath my skin like an angry shark under the surface of a calm ocean. Damn, that's deep. It frightens me, and makes me wonder: Once you kill someone, does it become an addiction? Does it spin out of control? Is this how Dahmer or Bundy started?
I need to talk to Morrigan. She knows from badness, seeing as how she was like, Queen of All Evil or some such shit. I'm going to Wolfram & Hart tomorrow to put Mom in rehab. I'm tired of this pussyfooting around it. She needs help, more than I am willing to give or can give. I'm tired of dealing with her. She will be put away.
I keep trying to tell myself it's only because she drinks and not because I'm trying to keep her safe from me . . .