I wonder if you ever think of me that way
Today, while randomly scrolling down the list of offline people in my MSN Messenger List, I spotted my ex-crush's name, which said something like "I'm alone no more". (for my secondary school friends: yeah lah yeah lah!! go ahead and laff at me, BAH!)
Being the typical, kaypo auntie from the HDB block, I went to check his friendster. True enough! He was attached already. (but the girlfriend like...very gina leh.)
I am happy for him, but I guess there was always a part of me that never managed to let go of the fact that he didn't reciprocate the feelings I had for him. It wasn't part of the affection I used to harbour against him, because I know that I don't like him anymore. 不服气吧？it's like,难道我不够好吗？haha..
Ever since I was 13, I've always admired the people who've got the courage to confess to their crush, because it not only takes up a great deal of courage to tell the truth, it also takes a lot of thick-skinnedness to take the ego-beating when the object of your affections decides you're not good enough for them. It's hard to explain, but I always beat myself down whenever I have a crush on somebody, telling myself I'm not good enough or he won't notice me, perhaps to stop giving myself hope?
And I guess nothing can beat the exhilarating thrill of a crush, when you feel so much affection for a person you think of nothing but him all the time. I think I was the only silly one to actually lie in bed and fantasize about being in a nice sweet relationship with my crush before I dropped off to sleep.
But I never did anything about my crushes, I let them wear off and I didn't obsess about them, maybe because I didn't want to get into a relationship into a guy I admired from afar, because when you get closer and understand him more, the aura gets rubbed off and you start seeing his flaws. Nothing's more fun than guessing, "does he like me? does he?" anyway. (:
I'd like to title this :I overmaxed my contrast button
I haven't sketched in yonks man..
Victoria's Secrets' models are
great for figure sketching!
*大拇指UP* lol
(:
Being the typical, kaypo auntie from the HDB block, I went to check his friendster. True enough! He was attached already. (but the girlfriend like...very gina leh.)
I am happy for him, but I guess there was always a part of me that never managed to let go of the fact that he didn't reciprocate the feelings I had for him. It wasn't part of the affection I used to harbour against him, because I know that I don't like him anymore. 不服气吧？it's like,难道我不够好吗？haha..
Ever since I was 13, I've always admired the people who've got the courage to confess to their crush, because it not only takes up a great deal of courage to tell the truth, it also takes a lot of thick-skinnedness to take the ego-beating when the object of your affections decides you're not good enough for them. It's hard to explain, but I always beat myself down whenever I have a crush on somebody, telling myself I'm not good enough or he won't notice me, perhaps to stop giving myself hope?
And I guess nothing can beat the exhilarating thrill of a crush, when you feel so much affection for a person you think of nothing but him all the time. I think I was the only silly one to actually lie in bed and fantasize about being in a nice sweet relationship with my crush before I dropped off to sleep.
But I never did anything about my crushes, I let them wear off and I didn't obsess about them, maybe because I didn't want to get into a relationship into a guy I admired from afar, because when you get closer and understand him more, the aura gets rubbed off and you start seeing his flaws. Nothing's more fun than guessing, "does he like me? does he?" anyway. (:
I'd like to title this :I overmaxed my contrast button
I haven't sketched in yonks man..
Victoria's Secrets' models are
great for figure sketching!
*大拇指UP* lol
(: