i want to feel you breathe me...
do you ever meet those ppl that you`re just excited to see for the 1o29348th time as you were the first? there are very few people in this world... make that universe, that are held in that regard to me. i recently met another one. =) i`ve only seen him a few times now, but every time is like the first time all over again. maybe this will change in the near future, in fact, i`m willing to bet a abe lincoln that it will.... but in the back of my mind, although i`ll never admit this out loud.... i hope it doesn`t. i`m sweatin` how this feels. it feels good. damn good.
but, is it right? i doubt it. things are never right with me and boys: we do not associate with eachother, friends or otherwise. period. sometimes i think my feelings are sprouted from a combonation of the things people want for me and the things they say to me. kneegrows needa stop playing off my hormones damnit! but maybe i want this for myself? i don`t know. fuck me damnit, i am such a fag.
but, even if these feelings are real and they stay... i`m too much of a loser and he deserves so much better than me that i`m not going to take initiative or take any sort of action. i`m going to sit back and fuck things up just like i did with eugene. that`s how i roll.
i know i`m bitching, but this has honestly been one of the best weekends i`ve had in a long time. you can read about here >> xanga.
would someone like to explain me to myself?
i`m sure you can do it in ONE word... in fact, i`ll help you out.
it has 5 letters, it starts with an L and ends with an R.
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this is to a boy, who got into my head...
P.S- i removed a shitload of people from my friends list. not many ppl actually read my entries, so i was just like, why are you on my friends list? if you want to stay on, just ask. if not, peace out homie, it`s been nice!