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Home. Wedding. Weird night. I'm quitting the Welbutrin - it makes me feel weird. Either way, I need to conquer something else - my drinking. I don't feel out of control, but sometimes I do. Although, last night, I had some personal issues I had to deal with. It's hard for me to see how stubborn I am, and how literal I take everything; but that is how I am - and exactly how I've always been. I feel like my life is chaotic and I want so badly to correct that. I miss stability and realiabiltiy; which is funny - after school, all I wanted was randomness. I just miss my life. I miss my pasion. I miss my agressive driving ability. I feel like things happen and my life sways by without my thought until it's too late. So goodbye pills, and hello new change - and new respect - and new life - it's time; and I embrace it.