Match-Maker
Such a contridiction of feelings.
I feel soo good that i am helping friends out. I'm totally lead to things of this sort. It runs in the family. My mom matched up like 3 couples who ended up getting married (3 maybe more but 3 at least). So I'm soo excited... and everyone is soo appreciative. and it makes it all the better. Plus Robb and Dot, and ADrian and Alicia its just cute. And i tried really hard with Bryan and Becka to get them together again but they have a lot of water under the bridge. I feel bad about that, but i tried and i did my best to see how he felt about it. Sorry Becka. Maybe down the line.
So with feeling pretty good about helping friends out and doing my best to set up cute couples and stuff, I feel so at loss. I have been going strong for a while. id say 6 months without dating someone. thats good. No random hook ups as ive done before to fill my time. Im waiting for God to provide someone amazing for me. I mean everyone is always like "God has someone Amazing waiting around the corner." Yes I know hello Jeremiah 29:11. So i wait and wait and wait and wait. Then something. possibly. But despite the amazing thing it could be and all the encouragment. There's this HUGE mountain standing in the way. I fell. a few times. But this last time was the worst. i had climbed so high. Im not doing good getting back up. I just dont see how the match maker cant make good matched for herself.
I have continuously settled for less than i deserve. well thats what people tell me. So when i finally shoot for something better. Nothin comes of it. MAYBE i dont deserve more. I dont know... Im just going to keep on praying.
Thats all i can do. Everyone says take advantage of the opportunities, dont back down until you are on the ground... But i see when im near hitting it, why put myself through more pain to say i tried. UHG... i dont think people understand how sensetive i really am. And maybe thats what i need to get over. I need to seperate my emotions. if i am mad at one person dont take it out on another. if i am sad dont show it to everyone. If i am happy and something changes no one needs to be able to read that on me. duh.
I REALLY cant figure out what God wants me to do. Please pray for me. I dont want to loose patience and peace about it.
I feel soo good that i am helping friends out. I'm totally lead to things of this sort. It runs in the family. My mom matched up like 3 couples who ended up getting married (3 maybe more but 3 at least). So I'm soo excited... and everyone is soo appreciative. and it makes it all the better. Plus Robb and Dot, and ADrian and Alicia its just cute. And i tried really hard with Bryan and Becka to get them together again but they have a lot of water under the bridge. I feel bad about that, but i tried and i did my best to see how he felt about it. Sorry Becka. Maybe down the line.
So with feeling pretty good about helping friends out and doing my best to set up cute couples and stuff, I feel so at loss. I have been going strong for a while. id say 6 months without dating someone. thats good. No random hook ups as ive done before to fill my time. Im waiting for God to provide someone amazing for me. I mean everyone is always like "God has someone Amazing waiting around the corner." Yes I know hello Jeremiah 29:11. So i wait and wait and wait and wait. Then something. possibly. But despite the amazing thing it could be and all the encouragment. There's this HUGE mountain standing in the way. I fell. a few times. But this last time was the worst. i had climbed so high. Im not doing good getting back up. I just dont see how the match maker cant make good matched for herself.
I have continuously settled for less than i deserve. well thats what people tell me. So when i finally shoot for something better. Nothin comes of it. MAYBE i dont deserve more. I dont know... Im just going to keep on praying.
Thats all i can do. Everyone says take advantage of the opportunities, dont back down until you are on the ground... But i see when im near hitting it, why put myself through more pain to say i tried. UHG... i dont think people understand how sensetive i really am. And maybe thats what i need to get over. I need to seperate my emotions. if i am mad at one person dont take it out on another. if i am sad dont show it to everyone. If i am happy and something changes no one needs to be able to read that on me. duh.
I REALLY cant figure out what God wants me to do. Please pray for me. I dont want to loose patience and peace about it.