I remember when....
Well I guess Ill make this months post....since that seems to be the rate im posting on lj now.
Things have been alright. Starting this year was really fucking stressful. Winter tour was a blast but coming back to the shows and stressing on the cd release wasnt a nice way to come back home after a great trip. Not to mention having about 5 really really good friends all leaving in the span of 2 weeks. especially a dear dear friend I loved very much who is as far as you can get in the u s of a, California!!! blah, I havnt been able to see/experience the place and when im there it wont be more than a couple days when im on tour. I do wish her the best of luck though.
The Strees, Anger and depression is still the same for me so far. I felt reaaalllllyyyy low for most of February and it was hard to pull out of the slump. Especially work excruciating work days alone....thats the worst cause with all the time I have to myself my brain just thinks and thinks about everything and anything and being alone and thinking about all possibilities and whatever....yeah it makes you have a bad day.
But! Ive been feeling posi. I feel like I have been balancing it out by thinking of the good and great for myself. I mean, I have so much more than alot of people, i know Ive said it before, but despite my sad story everyone has their own sad story, so why live miserable? or why be miserable when were together? I appreciate the great friends I have and all the fun I can find weather its party, shows or doing something by myself like writing music. When Im thinking low, i just remind myself of the good and that the good times will come around one of the next corners I turn and put down the shitty times till the cycle repeats.
Music has been keeping me up ALOT! since daniel has been gone and Larf isnt playing shows I have been writing alot alot. I have 10 new songs out of 20 im working on right now that I know I want on the next larf album. Im sick of our new one that came out already. i just wanna tour come back record immediately and release newer and better songs. Im booking myself more acoustic shows and writing more sogns for specifically just for my acoustic set. songs I dont plan on using with a full band ever cause....I dont wanna!!!
I feel happy where I am as a musician. Ive been drumming 8 years now, playing guitar for 5 (without taking a lesson) and my favorite gift I have now that guitar gave me is song writing. composing music isnt a problem for me anymore. since I write mostly rock n roll, pop punk, and real actual powerpop, melodies are not hard to pull out of my head and play through an amp. Writing My subject matter down lyrically is one of the funnest parts now. but my one thing i wanna work on improving the most now is my singing abilities. Im finally at a point of saying...I dont wanna be just another punk guy with a raspy voice, i wanna learn how to actually sing and how to actually use my voice to my best capabilities and better it.
since I only share my lj with pretty much 5 of my dear friends, Id like to admit I am quitting cigarettes. I dont wanna announce it to everyone yet cause any other attempt i had, when Id be having a party or something in the garage it was annoying for everyone to know and give me a hard time. at least for the first week. the last week i have just had one or two a day and Im on cold turkey day number 2 right now. but I got a good head for this! im feeling great now and posi so I wanna roll with it and kick this fucking habbit that I have had since I was 14.
what im doing with my smoke money is throwing into money for vocal lessons. I took my first real vocal lesson ever from sabra and the experience was great!! even on session one she was an amazing teacher and gave me at least 7 tips I never knew before. shes down to earth and connects well so im totally comfortable being her student. Im really excited to learn everything she will have to teach me.
ok enough jabber, i gotta go to work
marcos
Things have been alright. Starting this year was really fucking stressful. Winter tour was a blast but coming back to the shows and stressing on the cd release wasnt a nice way to come back home after a great trip. Not to mention having about 5 really really good friends all leaving in the span of 2 weeks. especially a dear dear friend I loved very much who is as far as you can get in the u s of a, California!!! blah, I havnt been able to see/experience the place and when im there it wont be more than a couple days when im on tour. I do wish her the best of luck though.
The Strees, Anger and depression is still the same for me so far. I felt reaaalllllyyyy low for most of February and it was hard to pull out of the slump. Especially work excruciating work days alone....thats the worst cause with all the time I have to myself my brain just thinks and thinks about everything and anything and being alone and thinking about all possibilities and whatever....yeah it makes you have a bad day.
But! Ive been feeling posi. I feel like I have been balancing it out by thinking of the good and great for myself. I mean, I have so much more than alot of people, i know Ive said it before, but despite my sad story everyone has their own sad story, so why live miserable? or why be miserable when were together? I appreciate the great friends I have and all the fun I can find weather its party, shows or doing something by myself like writing music. When Im thinking low, i just remind myself of the good and that the good times will come around one of the next corners I turn and put down the shitty times till the cycle repeats.
Music has been keeping me up ALOT! since daniel has been gone and Larf isnt playing shows I have been writing alot alot. I have 10 new songs out of 20 im working on right now that I know I want on the next larf album. Im sick of our new one that came out already. i just wanna tour come back record immediately and release newer and better songs. Im booking myself more acoustic shows and writing more sogns for specifically just for my acoustic set. songs I dont plan on using with a full band ever cause....I dont wanna!!!
I feel happy where I am as a musician. Ive been drumming 8 years now, playing guitar for 5 (without taking a lesson) and my favorite gift I have now that guitar gave me is song writing. composing music isnt a problem for me anymore. since I write mostly rock n roll, pop punk, and real actual powerpop, melodies are not hard to pull out of my head and play through an amp. Writing My subject matter down lyrically is one of the funnest parts now. but my one thing i wanna work on improving the most now is my singing abilities. Im finally at a point of saying...I dont wanna be just another punk guy with a raspy voice, i wanna learn how to actually sing and how to actually use my voice to my best capabilities and better it.
since I only share my lj with pretty much 5 of my dear friends, Id like to admit I am quitting cigarettes. I dont wanna announce it to everyone yet cause any other attempt i had, when Id be having a party or something in the garage it was annoying for everyone to know and give me a hard time. at least for the first week. the last week i have just had one or two a day and Im on cold turkey day number 2 right now. but I got a good head for this! im feeling great now and posi so I wanna roll with it and kick this fucking habbit that I have had since I was 14.
what im doing with my smoke money is throwing into money for vocal lessons. I took my first real vocal lesson ever from sabra and the experience was great!! even on session one she was an amazing teacher and gave me at least 7 tips I never knew before. shes down to earth and connects well so im totally comfortable being her student. Im really excited to learn everything she will have to teach me.
ok enough jabber, i gotta go to work
marcos