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My mood changes drastically and too much
maybe it's the DXM use
maybe the weird sleep patterns
maybe the caffeine + cigarettes + little amounts of food.
I'm equally at home drinking in parking garages with 16 year old punks and hanging out with 30-40 year old goths...
I'm doomed to be alone? But people... they are so shallow and strange.
I want to escape somewhere from myself?
is it logical at all
my interactions grow more and more theatrical and fake
i have no feelings
no soul
I'm pretty and vacant
I'm not sad
I'm just not there
I watch a movie a day - escape into pretty cinema worlds...
hah I get complimented on my looks almost everyday ( and often a few times a day)
vanity vanity
maybe it's the DXM use
maybe the weird sleep patterns
maybe the caffeine + cigarettes + little amounts of food.
I'm equally at home drinking in parking garages with 16 year old punks and hanging out with 30-40 year old goths...
I'm doomed to be alone? But people... they are so shallow and strange.
I want to escape somewhere from myself?
is it logical at all
my interactions grow more and more theatrical and fake
i have no feelings
no soul
I'm pretty and vacant
I'm not sad
I'm just not there
I watch a movie a day - escape into pretty cinema worlds...
hah I get complimented on my looks almost everyday ( and often a few times a day)
vanity vanity