A desire...

[f0urth_]

I wish that I didn't react to things the way I do.
I wish that I didn't have to be so hard to survive, but I guess I feel I have to.
If I'm not hard then I'm soft, and if I'm soft then I can hurt.
But if I'm hard, then I can't feel anymore.
And if I can't feel, then what's the point?
It's a hollow f0urth, and therefore a hollow victory.