Huge update...part 1
now that i have ripped off all but one nail i'm gunna update for real cuz i can type comfortably..
lol okayyyyyy so. im a little spacey right now cuz im thinking of a million and one things i can tell you guys about. let's start at may 1st shall we?..i think so yes. (heh)
IM WARNING YOU NOW...I love detailing shit...sometimes too much...so if i ramble..im sorry but expect it to happen. plus i havent updated recently so i have a lot to say...
ok..so tuesday may 1st...a normal..boring day. school 7:20-1:56..out, home..food, change for work...work 4-9...then mom picked me up and we went home. now, i already knew i wasnt gunna do any homework. i didnt care much to, and i was fucking exhausted. So, i go home...argue with mom a bit, and head to the computer to check the usual...myspace and go on aim...
Already tired and frustrated from mom giving me more shit about homework (which, yes, i understand i should do anyway...but she should know by now that when i say "i'm not doing it tonight" that she can nag me till shes blue in the face and i'm still not gunna do it.) I head over to my computer so that i can talk to people who will take my mind off of my day.
Myspace first, then Email...in my Email i find that i have a shitload of messages from True.com....(i hadn't checked my email in probably a month)..now, when i made my account it was originally just to get the pop-ups to go away (which amazingly, worked) and second, to occupy time when there was no one online and nothing left to do on myspace....so i had more or less completely forgotten about it. When i First made my account i looked around a bit to see if there was anyone interesting in or around westfield....
BINGO!...i found a few..but there was this one girl, her picture was just...wow...she was far from feminine. Backwards hat, short hair, lip pierced :) but fucking amazing,...something about her just caught me but it was one of those "wow...i'd have no chance in HELL with her, but i'll wink anyway.." you can do this thing..."winking" on True.com and it's kinda like online flirting..so, i sent her a wink..she's 20 so i couldn't figure out why i didnt know her..we were close enough in age and westfield is big, but most people know...mostly everyone else....anyway, figuring i had no chance in hell with her, i sent it and forgot about it...
...Till i got a response!..she Emailed me...when i saw the email, my heart started beating faster..(not racing, lol...just faster than usual) and i read the e-mail...normal, "hey how are you...im alright...got some shit going on...yatta yatta.." so i emailed her back and we sent a few (like 4) emails back and forth over...idk...like, 2 months?...so this Tuesday night, im home from work...scanning through these emails (deleteing most, if not all of them.) and i come across hers...i e-mailed her back all excitedly and didnt expect a response for a few weeks..i checked my myspace, and remembered that i was waiting for a response from something (cant member what it was now) and when i went back to check it i had an email from her...5 minutes after i sent her my email! :)...wicked excited now...i sent her my myspace URL and told her to add me there so we could talk faster..sure enough...in the next 3 minutes i was added...i added her back and commented on her page..one of her pictures and sent her a message...clicked home to wait for responses from her and she had ALREADY done the same things :)...it was cute...soo yea...long story short, i myspace messaged her and gave her my cell phone number. and we started the never-ending text messaging...we started at 10:30 at night and texted till i passed out at 2:30 in the morning...we had made plans for her to meet up with me at school because I had to hold a meeting and she was gunna come to it then we were gunna walk to her house after.
G period came and i was nervous as hell...my friend Leah is in the class with me and she knew Kayla..the girl i was meeting. Kayla came in and i lost my breath for a minute when i saw her...something about her smile, and the look in her eyes when she looked at me...i just...idk...was stuck in that moment in time for what seemed like an hour...her, leah and i walked to the class i was holding the meeting in at the end of the day and made t-shirts (heh..corny but it was a good ice breaker.) then we left school at 3:30 and walked about 15 minutes down the street to her house..at one point she reached out to take one of the bags i was carrying and i was like "i got it...im good" and she left her hand out.."let me carry one"..."i got it."..."let me see" she said so i put my hand in hers to occupy it so she wouldnt take the bag..and we held hands the rest of the way to her house :) (yes..she stuck out her other hand and eventually got me to give her the bag...but i still got to hold her other one...hehe)
I stayed at her house till 10:30...about 10:00 she asked me out and i was ridiculously happy...the feeling i got when she asked me, is indescribeable. (im pretty sure thats a word lol)...ive seen her every day since & i wouldnt want it any other way, i feel lost without her and she means the world to me...
Ill end this here......if anyone actually read this..thank you....love you all
lol okayyyyyy so. im a little spacey right now cuz im thinking of a million and one things i can tell you guys about. let's start at may 1st shall we?..i think so yes. (heh)
IM WARNING YOU NOW...I love detailing shit...sometimes too much...so if i ramble..im sorry but expect it to happen. plus i havent updated recently so i have a lot to say...
ok..so tuesday may 1st...a normal..boring day. school 7:20-1:56..out, home..food, change for work...work 4-9...then mom picked me up and we went home. now, i already knew i wasnt gunna do any homework. i didnt care much to, and i was fucking exhausted. So, i go home...argue with mom a bit, and head to the computer to check the usual...myspace and go on aim...
Already tired and frustrated from mom giving me more shit about homework (which, yes, i understand i should do anyway...but she should know by now that when i say "i'm not doing it tonight" that she can nag me till shes blue in the face and i'm still not gunna do it.) I head over to my computer so that i can talk to people who will take my mind off of my day.
Myspace first, then Email...in my Email i find that i have a shitload of messages from True.com....(i hadn't checked my email in probably a month)..now, when i made my account it was originally just to get the pop-ups to go away (which amazingly, worked) and second, to occupy time when there was no one online and nothing left to do on myspace....so i had more or less completely forgotten about it. When i First made my account i looked around a bit to see if there was anyone interesting in or around westfield....
BINGO!...i found a few..but there was this one girl, her picture was just...wow...she was far from feminine. Backwards hat, short hair, lip pierced :) but fucking amazing,...something about her just caught me but it was one of those "wow...i'd have no chance in HELL with her, but i'll wink anyway.." you can do this thing..."winking" on True.com and it's kinda like online flirting..so, i sent her a wink..she's 20 so i couldn't figure out why i didnt know her..we were close enough in age and westfield is big, but most people know...mostly everyone else....anyway, figuring i had no chance in hell with her, i sent it and forgot about it...
...Till i got a response!..she Emailed me...when i saw the email, my heart started beating faster..(not racing, lol...just faster than usual) and i read the e-mail...normal, "hey how are you...im alright...got some shit going on...yatta yatta.." so i emailed her back and we sent a few (like 4) emails back and forth over...idk...like, 2 months?...so this Tuesday night, im home from work...scanning through these emails (deleteing most, if not all of them.) and i come across hers...i e-mailed her back all excitedly and didnt expect a response for a few weeks..i checked my myspace, and remembered that i was waiting for a response from something (cant member what it was now) and when i went back to check it i had an email from her...5 minutes after i sent her my email! :)...wicked excited now...i sent her my myspace URL and told her to add me there so we could talk faster..sure enough...in the next 3 minutes i was added...i added her back and commented on her page..one of her pictures and sent her a message...clicked home to wait for responses from her and she had ALREADY done the same things :)...it was cute...soo yea...long story short, i myspace messaged her and gave her my cell phone number. and we started the never-ending text messaging...we started at 10:30 at night and texted till i passed out at 2:30 in the morning...we had made plans for her to meet up with me at school because I had to hold a meeting and she was gunna come to it then we were gunna walk to her house after.
G period came and i was nervous as hell...my friend Leah is in the class with me and she knew Kayla..the girl i was meeting. Kayla came in and i lost my breath for a minute when i saw her...something about her smile, and the look in her eyes when she looked at me...i just...idk...was stuck in that moment in time for what seemed like an hour...her, leah and i walked to the class i was holding the meeting in at the end of the day and made t-shirts (heh..corny but it was a good ice breaker.) then we left school at 3:30 and walked about 15 minutes down the street to her house..at one point she reached out to take one of the bags i was carrying and i was like "i got it...im good" and she left her hand out.."let me carry one"..."i got it."..."let me see" she said so i put my hand in hers to occupy it so she wouldnt take the bag..and we held hands the rest of the way to her house :) (yes..she stuck out her other hand and eventually got me to give her the bag...but i still got to hold her other one...hehe)
I stayed at her house till 10:30...about 10:00 she asked me out and i was ridiculously happy...the feeling i got when she asked me, is indescribeable. (im pretty sure thats a word lol)...ive seen her every day since & i wouldnt want it any other way, i feel lost without her and she means the world to me...
Ill end this here......if anyone actually read this..thank you....love you all