i've been to hell and back, and your still here next to me...
so my dad was randomly talking to me today about "what do you want to do with your life?" my reply was "i don't know" because honestly i don't know. all i know is that, i want to go to the Naval Academy, and I want to be in the service. My dad started the thing about how "if you go into the Navy, you will be away from your family for long periods of time, you will have to move around all the time, you might not start a family as a result of moving so much, do you want this with your life?" then he braught up the question, "if you where to go to war, would you be able to kill someone?" my answer is yes dad if it meant i was defending my country, i would kill someone. if it meant i was fighting so others could live free, i would do it. pretty much my dad keeps bringing up quetions on how serious i am about going to the Academy.
IM SERIOUS. i don't know how i can put this. i never made my dad proud, i always fucked up, finally i realize what i want to do, and i realize i have what it takes to do it, so i am taking the chances, and putting things on the line in order to do so. for god sakes, i put my social involvement on the line. i go to school 6.5 hours a day, then 2 days a week on top of my 6.5 hours of school i go to 2 more hours of a International Realations course at the Academy, and listen to a college professor talk for 2 hours straight...i would say im pretty commited on my vision of going to the academy.
one thing i dont understand is, i thought my parents where proud of me that i am working hard to get good grades, that i am self motivated, that im a top athlete, but most of all that im a good person with a good personality. i thought wanting to get into the Academy would number one save them money, number 2 make them proud that their Daughter was defending the Country. i just dont understand it. but oh well i guess somethings ill never understand.
anyways, so Robins finally okay she got things figured out, what was wrong with her i have no idea, but im glad shes okay now. i finally got a hold of Jim, his phone broke AGAIN, so they gave him a new phone instead. tomarrow i have a tennis lesson from 10:30am - 11:30am, that is if it doesn't rain. i hope it DOESN'T rain because i really need a lesson, i have to stay on top of my game, and the only way i can do that is hitting with the Pro's up at the Club, if it rains maybe ill just go to the gym and work out for a couple hours. relieve all this stress thats botteling up inside of me recently.
I applied to summer seminar at the Naval Academy in the middle of February, and right now its April 5th...im hoping to find out if i got accepted, or if i wasn't accepted. it would be nice to know, i should find out sometime AFTER April 15th, if i got accepted or not. the suspense is killing me i want to know i if i got in or not, im sort of worried that i didn't make it, because last semester wasnt such a great one...oh well im out i have to get back to writting my essay for the essay contest. (the things i do to try and get into college)
IM SERIOUS. i don't know how i can put this. i never made my dad proud, i always fucked up, finally i realize what i want to do, and i realize i have what it takes to do it, so i am taking the chances, and putting things on the line in order to do so. for god sakes, i put my social involvement on the line. i go to school 6.5 hours a day, then 2 days a week on top of my 6.5 hours of school i go to 2 more hours of a International Realations course at the Academy, and listen to a college professor talk for 2 hours straight...i would say im pretty commited on my vision of going to the academy.
one thing i dont understand is, i thought my parents where proud of me that i am working hard to get good grades, that i am self motivated, that im a top athlete, but most of all that im a good person with a good personality. i thought wanting to get into the Academy would number one save them money, number 2 make them proud that their Daughter was defending the Country. i just dont understand it. but oh well i guess somethings ill never understand.
anyways, so Robins finally okay she got things figured out, what was wrong with her i have no idea, but im glad shes okay now. i finally got a hold of Jim, his phone broke AGAIN, so they gave him a new phone instead. tomarrow i have a tennis lesson from 10:30am - 11:30am, that is if it doesn't rain. i hope it DOESN'T rain because i really need a lesson, i have to stay on top of my game, and the only way i can do that is hitting with the Pro's up at the Club, if it rains maybe ill just go to the gym and work out for a couple hours. relieve all this stress thats botteling up inside of me recently.
I applied to summer seminar at the Naval Academy in the middle of February, and right now its April 5th...im hoping to find out if i got accepted, or if i wasn't accepted. it would be nice to know, i should find out sometime AFTER April 15th, if i got accepted or not. the suspense is killing me i want to know i if i got in or not, im sort of worried that i didn't make it, because last semester wasnt such a great one...oh well im out i have to get back to writting my essay for the essay contest. (the things i do to try and get into college)