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I cant seem to shake this feeling, honestly its driving me insane. Its a feeling of satisfaction with nothing here in woodbridge my work has pretty much consumed my life and when I have time off I seem to end up sitting on my computer looking at myspace and facebook repetivley and yeah some nights I'm tired and would rather be alone but then or I just don't feel up to going to parties here because I have to drive home which isnt their fault. I hate this feeling because I'm just not feeling like I'm into a lot of the same things my friends are anymore so it leaves me in this weird place, its more of a feeling of wishing I would just get a phone call to include me in even if i cant because of work. Its summer and I want to make beach trips but I am constantly working weekends and its almost impossible to ask for time off because they schedule everyone on weekends to work.
The distance between drew and I is getting to me more then anything because we are going to have the complete opposite schedules in about a week and I am constantly getting aggravated with the situation when it isn't even his fault that he goes out with his friends while I work or sit at my house so that the distracted five minute phone conversations arent enough and only make me upset at the fact that I wish I could be down there spending some time with him which I'm not really sure he understands
Really this is all something within myself that isn't working its self out, too many different feeling colliding
The distance between drew and I is getting to me more then anything because we are going to have the complete opposite schedules in about a week and I am constantly getting aggravated with the situation when it isn't even his fault that he goes out with his friends while I work or sit at my house so that the distracted five minute phone conversations arent enough and only make me upset at the fact that I wish I could be down there spending some time with him which I'm not really sure he understands
Really this is all something within myself that isn't working its self out, too many different feeling colliding