maybe i hurt you sometimes..well lets contrast and compare lift up your shirt the wound isnt there-

[f0rsaken_h0pe]

So last night I went out with my dad and alex to dinner, and then we went to Verizon to see what was up with our phones..but as I had said it was closed. It's really sad that I don't remember the last day me and my dad went without fighting. He's got such a short fuse now, he never used to be like that. I was daddy's little princess..I don't mean that as in " ooh man daddy doesn't spoil me anymore" I mean if I was hurt, he was hurt and he did anything to keep me from feeling that way. But now it's like he's the one who's hurting me. I miss my dad. When one aspect of my life is good, other parts fall to shit. School is good, life at home sucks. School is bad, life at home is good. My relationship is good, my job is shot to shit. My relationship is bad, my job is good. I have too many friends, I have too little friends. Nothing can ever just be balanced and work out..like it's impossible. So whatever last night when we came home I got alex ready for bed but he still didn't go to bed..he never goes to bed. That resulted in me and my dad fighting again. I don't know how to make it better so I'll just ride it out. Then I was on the phone with Kyle..I was really upset though so we didn't talk that much then Eric called and I talked to him for a while. It's so weird how I'll be on the phone hysterical with someone and any other person can call and I'll still be crying, but Eric calls and I stop. It's not even anything he does or says it's just what happens..I told him that too. But we're just friends, that's how it's always gunna be I suppose. So after I hung up with him I talked to Kyle..and he was upset cause he seems to think he's going to lose me to another guy, but I can only reassure him so many times before I get sick of hearing it myself. I know he loves me though, so I have to try and bear with his insecurities, like he does with mine. Then I went to bed. Woke up this morning, didn't feel good so my mom let me stay home I slept till like..1:20 got up attempted to make a doctors appointment for today but uhh I can't get one till tomorrow. Oh well. At least I got to sleep in today cause I really needed it. I have to call Ashley when she gets home today, actually I might just leave her a voicemail. Anywhoo I'm gunna go shower or something.

Adios kiddies-

I talk to me
cause you can't hear me when I do
you don't know
you gave me the best feeling I ever had-