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Why can you read me like no one else?
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
I wish I kept them behind my tongue
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them so jealous
all the ways you make my stomach turn
and all the long drives
with my friends blur
and I wish I kept them inside my mind
I hide behind these words
and think of all the places
where you've been lost
and then found...out
in between my sheets
in between the rights and the wrongs
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
aching head and an aching world
think of all the places
where you've been lost and found...out
I have to say, if you don't have time to listen to me whine you shouldn't have click the link. I hate this. I don't understand it anymore. No matter what I say, or who else I date I'll always have feelings for him. It hurts me so much that he see's the world in this girl, who just dicks him over repeatidly. Why can't he see that I would have NEVER hurt him, not for anything. I've had the best times with him, and the worst times with him. Now it's all a blur, even the good times. I don't even think he cares about the way I feel. I mean I know it's not like we were gonna get married or anything. But he was the first person I ever loved, and the first boy to break my heart. He was probably the first guy that knew every detail about my life, and knew when something was wrong even without me telling him. Sometimes he could even tell what was wrong, he read me, he got me. He understood when NO ONE else could possibly understand or even try to. But now everything is different. He doesn't know who I've become, he knows nothing of me anymore. And I, know nothing of him. Every time the phone rings and it's him, I find it hard to pick up the phone..most of the time I don't. It's too hard to talk to him. I have nothing to say, because countless times I've spilled every emotion to him, and he hasn't cared enough to be with me. I NEED to let go, I need to forget. I need to forget every hug, every kiss, most importantly every emotion. I need to forget every time he made my heart stop, every time he made my heart beat faster than I ever thought possible. I need to forget about him totally. The sad part is, it's SO hard. I don't know how to do it, I don't know how to let him go, I've been inlove with him for 9 months. I compare every guy I date to him, and I've been with 5 people since. Yeah I liked them, but they were NEVER him. And I never loved them like I loved him. I started writing this with ambition to say goodbye..but I'm dragging it on too much..so, goodbye.
Well, you didn't take heart so I took it from you.