..DON'T let it go to your head, boys like you are dime a dozen
Last night I had a lot of trouble sleeping so I tuned my guitar and fooled around with that fora little, then I decided to watch my last DVD of the OC..big mistake. The last episode made me cry my eyes out it was SO sad. Jem remade maybe I'm amazed..and it fit so perect it made me cry..lots of tears. It was sad. So I finally fell asleep at 3:45 am...noice. Danielley woke me up around 12ish I think? I don't really remember..I talked to her for a while then I did some stuff around the house. After that I got dressed and to Middletown with my mommy and alex..after that we went to the mall to get something else for Danielley. I fucking dropped my cell phone in the parking lot and it broke in half..like a clean split..but I snapped it back together? My dad said he's gunna get me a new one for X-mas. I miss my daddy, he's coming back on Friday..but he's leaving again in the begining of Feb. Anyhoo then we wen't to dinner. That's sorta where the weirdness came about. My dad called cause I had left him a VM about how I busted my phone and he told my mom that he wants to move to North Carolina. It's sort of a surprise..being that like ..it's come up in convo before but never has one of them actually said they wanted to go. But uh..my dad did. So we'll see what happens there I guess. That's one weird thing. Another weird thing, I came home checked my caller ID..and Ryan's cell # was there. He hasn't called me in months, there's no excuse for it..but he just hasn't..I don't even think we're friends anymore..but that's weird. So I called him back but I got his VM so I left him one. Yeah. Weird. I'm weak, I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm confused. I wish all thats happening..wasn't happening..and I wish all that has happened..hadn't happened. I wish I was 10 again. Before anything bad ever happened. Before there were lies and heart breaks..before drugs and sex..before drama. The sad part is there's been so many bad times..I have trouble remembering the good times. Oh well. I don't know. But I'm getting sad..and I miss my tommy caspe.
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