wooooooooooooooo
Wow. how insane has this been.
I'll start from thursday. School is hell. I'm so sick of it all. I can't even stand to be there. I'm finding it really hard to do my usual fake smile more and more. I've been stressed about finals and everything. I'm not doing that bad but still.
The cheer expo. Ohhhh god. I did so bad. I dropped my damn heel strech. again. I was so embarressed :-[
It's hard standing there and youre shaking like hell and to try to keep it stiff while holding your leg up there. It's a long hold too. The worst part is I can do it when I'm not nervous..really good too. ahh. Our round 3 was...well it needed alot of work.
Varsity, I'm speechless. they are so amazing. I cant even imagine being so...wow. I was in awe. Freshmen did really good too <3.
Friday. ahh I can't even remember things anymore.
I've been working really hard to do geometry. I can honestly say I hate math. any and every kind.
We got our new schedules. Yet again I have Holman.
I know I know, it cant get any worse.
OH BUT IT CAN. I have zero, that's right zero classes with Slack. No one even understands. We've had so many classes and lunch together all the time. To not have anything now it...it makes me think alot. I hate it so much. When I went into 4th hour yesterday and found out we didnt have any classes or even lunch together I started thinking about how I was close to some people I had classes with and now we barely talk. The thought that her and I wouldnt talk hurt. alot.
I know I sound like fucking baby but I cried. I couldnt help it. ahhh I'm pathetic.
I cant even think about this anymore.
I don't have classes with anyone. Okay I do. 5th and 6th hour with tia. i love her alot. but those are like the only classes I have with anyone I'm close with. damnit.
LUNCH? yep. ill be the loser that has to take their lunch in the bathroom cuz I have no friends to sit with. damn im really gunna miss lunch with ash and slack :-(
this is a really long entry. I'm not even close to being done.
After school friday we had practice for 3 hours.
Round 2 like hell. Did I drop my heel strech everytime? yep.
It was so depressing. my nerves were out of control.
+ we added stuff too. I know round 2 really fucking good it's just the fact that I feel like everyones counting on me not to drop the damn heel strech cuz I'm always the only one who drops it too soon.
We worked on round 3 but I'm not even in that round. It still needed alot of work.
I came home stressing like hell.
Today. today..wow. First competition ever. Does anyone realize how exciting it was? well it was. I was up at 5:30. my hair was cute i guess. it had the tiny curls..but werent so tiny cuz my hair is long.
I was ready at like 6:30 so of course I'm streching like hell.
I was so damn ready. heather picked me up and then we got marissa. We went to Tim Hortons and i was like omggggg what if evans is working?
oph he wasnt...at least I didnt see him.
Ookaaaay so we get there. Novi is fucking enourmous. it's insane that that's a damn high school, it looked like a zoo! haha
We warmed up alot. round two was perfect. my heel strech so went up everytime we practiced it. everytime except the last time before we went on. damn. I thought i was so fucking ready.
When they called us it was soo ahhhhhh
I really loved it. it was a rush, I wasnt even shaking at all. I can't even remember how I did all I know is my heelstrech dropped a second too soon.
I really want to see the video :-(
I thought we did good for this being the first time like half our squad has ever been to competitions. We didn't place.
We all worked so hard. This just pushes us to work even harder for next week. I'm so ready. I seriously love our coaches. they are so encouraging it just makes me smile how awesome they are. <3
there's more but I don't feel like typing. Over all it was alot of fun. Nervious as hell but it was an awesome experience.
<3
I'll start from thursday. School is hell. I'm so sick of it all. I can't even stand to be there. I'm finding it really hard to do my usual fake smile more and more. I've been stressed about finals and everything. I'm not doing that bad but still.
The cheer expo. Ohhhh god. I did so bad. I dropped my damn heel strech. again. I was so embarressed :-[
It's hard standing there and youre shaking like hell and to try to keep it stiff while holding your leg up there. It's a long hold too. The worst part is I can do it when I'm not nervous..really good too. ahh. Our round 3 was...well it needed alot of work.
Varsity, I'm speechless. they are so amazing. I cant even imagine being so...wow. I was in awe. Freshmen did really good too <3.
Friday. ahh I can't even remember things anymore.
I've been working really hard to do geometry. I can honestly say I hate math. any and every kind.
We got our new schedules. Yet again I have Holman.
I know I know, it cant get any worse.
OH BUT IT CAN. I have zero, that's right zero classes with Slack. No one even understands. We've had so many classes and lunch together all the time. To not have anything now it...it makes me think alot. I hate it so much. When I went into 4th hour yesterday and found out we didnt have any classes or even lunch together I started thinking about how I was close to some people I had classes with and now we barely talk. The thought that her and I wouldnt talk hurt. alot.
I know I sound like fucking baby but I cried. I couldnt help it. ahhh I'm pathetic.
I cant even think about this anymore.
I don't have classes with anyone. Okay I do. 5th and 6th hour with tia. i love her alot. but those are like the only classes I have with anyone I'm close with. damnit.
LUNCH? yep. ill be the loser that has to take their lunch in the bathroom cuz I have no friends to sit with. damn im really gunna miss lunch with ash and slack :-(
this is a really long entry. I'm not even close to being done.
After school friday we had practice for 3 hours.
Round 2 like hell. Did I drop my heel strech everytime? yep.
It was so depressing. my nerves were out of control.
+ we added stuff too. I know round 2 really fucking good it's just the fact that I feel like everyones counting on me not to drop the damn heel strech cuz I'm always the only one who drops it too soon.
We worked on round 3 but I'm not even in that round. It still needed alot of work.
I came home stressing like hell.
Today. today..wow. First competition ever. Does anyone realize how exciting it was? well it was. I was up at 5:30. my hair was cute i guess. it had the tiny curls..but werent so tiny cuz my hair is long.
I was ready at like 6:30 so of course I'm streching like hell.
I was so damn ready. heather picked me up and then we got marissa. We went to Tim Hortons and i was like omggggg what if evans is working?
oph he wasnt...at least I didnt see him.
Ookaaaay so we get there. Novi is fucking enourmous. it's insane that that's a damn high school, it looked like a zoo! haha
We warmed up alot. round two was perfect. my heel strech so went up everytime we practiced it. everytime except the last time before we went on. damn. I thought i was so fucking ready.
When they called us it was soo ahhhhhh
I really loved it. it was a rush, I wasnt even shaking at all. I can't even remember how I did all I know is my heelstrech dropped a second too soon.
I really want to see the video :-(
I thought we did good for this being the first time like half our squad has ever been to competitions. We didn't place.
We all worked so hard. This just pushes us to work even harder for next week. I'm so ready. I seriously love our coaches. they are so encouraging it just makes me smile how awesome they are. <3
there's more but I don't feel like typing. Over all it was alot of fun. Nervious as hell but it was an awesome experience.
<3