TAKE ME BACK LJ!!!
well LJ.. i want you back. i know we haven't talked in a long time, but i think i am ready to commit to our relationship. if you would just take me back? i won't mess things up this time! haha :)
hi everybody! i know it has been a long time (25 weeks according to LJ) but i want to come back. many of my friends, or whatever you call them on here, have probably deleted me. but i promise my entries are good and i leave comments, SO TAKE ME BACK!
the last time i updated was when i moved into my dorm... and that was in september, so you can imagine a lot has happened within that time. there are a million stories i could write out but i think i am just going to let everyone imagine what goes on in the life of a college freshman... new friends, lots of partying (and studying, unfortunately) and a tad bit of DRAMA.
let me start with this weekend..
thursday-- (yes, we have thirsty thursday's at OSU) i went to my friends house, mike and kevin. we had a game night... we played apples to apples. it was wayyyy fun. and of course, there may have been alcohol involved.. haha
friday-- me and my friend sara went to a big frat party, the theme was cowboys and cowgirls, so you can imagine our attire. we played flip cup the whoooooole night, hells yeah. JB and brewster showed up.. it's weird hanging out with D-1 football players.. they are nice guys to be friend with... ladies, i would not recommend more than that...
yesterday-- me and sara went outside with our boys (they live across the hall) and had a massive, 2 hour long snowball fight. it was soooo much fun! i can't remember the last time we got so much snow here.
last night-- sara, nicole, and i made dinner for our friend andrew.. it was his birthday! then we went to a bar, met up with some guys and went back to their frat for a couple games of pong, then headed to another party. this party was RIDICULOUS. it had upwards of 12 cases of beer and there was this stuff called yank me, crank me.. and let's say it can sneak up on you.. haha
it was mostly a fun night except on the way back home, my friends andrew and ben got in a fight.. i was the only one with them, so i was hitting them to try to get them to stop hitting each other.. oh, you silly drunk boys.
annnnd my friends from a long time ago.. you know that no entry is complete without me ranting about my boys.. haha
well there's dean. he lives on my floor.. we have been having "sleepovers" since the beginning of first quarter.. he is an awesome guy and i love him.. i would describe our relationship as a friends with benefits thing.. and i am completely fine with it. i love hanging out with him, we just have a blast, and why not have a little after hours fun too? gosh, i love college. haha
thennn there's matt... he's this guy i know from back home.. we ran into each other at the place that we work out and started texting.... this is the boy that i am all torn up about. i am just going to be blunt here.. he's not the type of guy i usually go for.. i don't find him that attractive but i love his personality. and i think that should be all that matters. and why not? i have been dicked over by all the guys in the past who i was physically attracted too, so why not try something new? wellllll anyway, i went to a party at his house.. and ended up spending the night. STOP, I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING! BUT NO! we did nothing more than kiss. and the next morning when we woke up, we talked for 3 hours straight. it was just awesome. he walked me home, no walk of shame for me. (for those of you who don't know, the walk of shame is a phenomena that occurs on college campuses, when at odd hours of the morning you can see girls walking by themselves in the same clothes they were wearing the night before. it is appropriate to honk or make some sort of cat call.. and i say this even though i have been there.. haha) so that was nice.. we texted NON-STOP for like 3 weeks straight.. but the weird thing was is that we never really hung out.. i would see him every other day at the place we work out and we would talk, but we would never hang out.. he is a chem engineering major (also, a smart guy, big change for me!) so he is taking a pretty heavy course load... and i can't ask him to take time away from school. but seriously, you have to take a break eventually! ughhh. ANYWAY, we continued hanging out and i continued sleeping over, with nothing happening btw. we discussed our relationship.. we decided that we both didn't want a relationship at this point in our lives.. (and i have never been good at relationships, so i was glad he didn't want one!) but i know he has feelings for me, one, because he told me and two, he even got in a fight with his roommate because he thought he was hitting on me.. soo i mean, i know that i am not exaggerating things here..
i am making a new paragraph, that one was getting a little intense. so we decided that we didn't want a relationship and he said that he wanted to take things slow (which explains the only kissing) and at some point within this.. i started to really like this kid... i think it was because he wanted more out of me than.. to be blunt.. sex. he has always been completely honest with me, also, something that i am not used to with boys (no offense guys..) and coming to this realization was pretty weird for me.. here's this guy that i am hardly physically attracted too.. but completely infatuated with his personality and his sense of humor. what do i do?
well somewhere along the lines, he got the impression that i wanted something serious... and even though i like him. (i feel like a 7th grader using the word like to describe my feelings, but oh well) i guess you have to know me.. every attempt i have made at a relationship with someone has failed miserably, and i don't want that to happen here. so i explained to him that i just wanted to have fun, and why not have some fun with him? he agreed. of course, haha. so i guess that's where we are now.. it's almost spring break.. he's going to canada.. and i am going home.. whoooo. but maybe when he gets back we could meet up? i don't know... we'll see what happens.
anyways, i hope i still have friends on here because i really enjoyed reading everyone's entries.
comments are encouraged.
any advice would be lovely.
hi everybody! i know it has been a long time (25 weeks according to LJ) but i want to come back. many of my friends, or whatever you call them on here, have probably deleted me. but i promise my entries are good and i leave comments, SO TAKE ME BACK!
the last time i updated was when i moved into my dorm... and that was in september, so you can imagine a lot has happened within that time. there are a million stories i could write out but i think i am just going to let everyone imagine what goes on in the life of a college freshman... new friends, lots of partying (and studying, unfortunately) and a tad bit of DRAMA.
let me start with this weekend..
thursday-- (yes, we have thirsty thursday's at OSU) i went to my friends house, mike and kevin. we had a game night... we played apples to apples. it was wayyyy fun. and of course, there may have been alcohol involved.. haha
friday-- me and my friend sara went to a big frat party, the theme was cowboys and cowgirls, so you can imagine our attire. we played flip cup the whoooooole night, hells yeah. JB and brewster showed up.. it's weird hanging out with D-1 football players.. they are nice guys to be friend with... ladies, i would not recommend more than that...
yesterday-- me and sara went outside with our boys (they live across the hall) and had a massive, 2 hour long snowball fight. it was soooo much fun! i can't remember the last time we got so much snow here.
last night-- sara, nicole, and i made dinner for our friend andrew.. it was his birthday! then we went to a bar, met up with some guys and went back to their frat for a couple games of pong, then headed to another party. this party was RIDICULOUS. it had upwards of 12 cases of beer and there was this stuff called yank me, crank me.. and let's say it can sneak up on you.. haha
it was mostly a fun night except on the way back home, my friends andrew and ben got in a fight.. i was the only one with them, so i was hitting them to try to get them to stop hitting each other.. oh, you silly drunk boys.
annnnd my friends from a long time ago.. you know that no entry is complete without me ranting about my boys.. haha
well there's dean. he lives on my floor.. we have been having "sleepovers" since the beginning of first quarter.. he is an awesome guy and i love him.. i would describe our relationship as a friends with benefits thing.. and i am completely fine with it. i love hanging out with him, we just have a blast, and why not have a little after hours fun too? gosh, i love college. haha
thennn there's matt... he's this guy i know from back home.. we ran into each other at the place that we work out and started texting.... this is the boy that i am all torn up about. i am just going to be blunt here.. he's not the type of guy i usually go for.. i don't find him that attractive but i love his personality. and i think that should be all that matters. and why not? i have been dicked over by all the guys in the past who i was physically attracted too, so why not try something new? wellllll anyway, i went to a party at his house.. and ended up spending the night. STOP, I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING! BUT NO! we did nothing more than kiss. and the next morning when we woke up, we talked for 3 hours straight. it was just awesome. he walked me home, no walk of shame for me. (for those of you who don't know, the walk of shame is a phenomena that occurs on college campuses, when at odd hours of the morning you can see girls walking by themselves in the same clothes they were wearing the night before. it is appropriate to honk or make some sort of cat call.. and i say this even though i have been there.. haha) so that was nice.. we texted NON-STOP for like 3 weeks straight.. but the weird thing was is that we never really hung out.. i would see him every other day at the place we work out and we would talk, but we would never hang out.. he is a chem engineering major (also, a smart guy, big change for me!) so he is taking a pretty heavy course load... and i can't ask him to take time away from school. but seriously, you have to take a break eventually! ughhh. ANYWAY, we continued hanging out and i continued sleeping over, with nothing happening btw. we discussed our relationship.. we decided that we both didn't want a relationship at this point in our lives.. (and i have never been good at relationships, so i was glad he didn't want one!) but i know he has feelings for me, one, because he told me and two, he even got in a fight with his roommate because he thought he was hitting on me.. soo i mean, i know that i am not exaggerating things here..
i am making a new paragraph, that one was getting a little intense. so we decided that we didn't want a relationship and he said that he wanted to take things slow (which explains the only kissing) and at some point within this.. i started to really like this kid... i think it was because he wanted more out of me than.. to be blunt.. sex. he has always been completely honest with me, also, something that i am not used to with boys (no offense guys..) and coming to this realization was pretty weird for me.. here's this guy that i am hardly physically attracted too.. but completely infatuated with his personality and his sense of humor. what do i do?
well somewhere along the lines, he got the impression that i wanted something serious... and even though i like him. (i feel like a 7th grader using the word like to describe my feelings, but oh well) i guess you have to know me.. every attempt i have made at a relationship with someone has failed miserably, and i don't want that to happen here. so i explained to him that i just wanted to have fun, and why not have some fun with him? he agreed. of course, haha. so i guess that's where we are now.. it's almost spring break.. he's going to canada.. and i am going home.. whoooo. but maybe when he gets back we could meet up? i don't know... we'll see what happens.
anyways, i hope i still have friends on here because i really enjoyed reading everyone's entries.
comments are encouraged.
any advice would be lovely.