good kitty

[ezymogen]

Two great things have happened by default -- it's become a new year and I've begun my second semester of med school. I've spent the day reading and taking notes, reading and taking notes. It was a wonderful day because I went to yoga in the morning and ate healthy and delicious meals with good company.

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[signorinakatina]

I have found that I go through phases of having some sort of stage fright and not having it at all. I can be very proactive about encouraging a positive attitude in myself and I can make a lot of progress by working on it, but sometimes, ultimately the last step to actually having a good attitude or not seems to be sort of random. Not just with singing. I wish I knew how to accomplish a good attitude every time, but it often ends up being unpredictable and elusive--enjoy it as much as you can while it lasts!

I have also had times when I wished I just wasn't performing, or thought, "it's still not too late to cancel." and these days, I am a professional singer! haha. It always helped to remind myself that I never yet have TOTALLY screwed up any performance, and I can trust myself.

It seems that, in feeling insecure or secure, the biggest reliable influence is time passing. How I feel about performing changes all the time, but in the end whether I'm having a secure or insecure phase depends mostly on arbitrary feelings and chance experiences, and the only for-sure influence is time passing. The older I get, the more secure I feel, in general.

[ezymogen]

That's so helpful to read. Thank you.

By the way, your website is gorgeous and wow you sound fantastic! (I just now followed your link on fb)