So hey guys... Long time no see right?
Well, as for not updating my journal for two months.. I really don't have an excuse. I've been too lazy to really sit down and feel like typing out what's going on with me.
But, for now, I think I'm up to the challenge. XD
I hope everyone has been well since we all last spoke. A LOT has happened over the past few months, so I've got a lot to talk about. :D
I've since gotten a job at Carl's Jr. It's actually going quite well, now that I'm getting into a routine. I notice that I've become more friendly and outgoing outside of work, so that's a really good thing. I feel better, and I'm more confident. Who knew, right? The only thing I really don't like is that I don't get to see my money. Since I don't have an ID (or a car, for that matter) I can't set up an account, I give all my money to my parents. It's kind of annoying; I've made close to $2000 and I've barely been able to spend $100 of it. I want to buy things. I want to be able to use my money at my own leisure. *sigh* This is a very large pain in the ass.
I also withdrew from UC Davis. That's right folks. No longer going there. :O Hopefully, if everything works out, I'll be transferring to University of Hawaii at Manoa-- they have a great Japanese program, and I'll be able to live with my friend Kalani, so that's always a plus. I haven't seen in a long time... I wonder how she's doing.
I'm taking 4 classes at Sierra College (the local JC here in Loomis). I LOVE them all. Granted, the three hour Geology class I'm taking runs a smidge long, but it's interesting, and my professor is funny, so it's all good. I'm taking Geology, History of East Asian Art, History of Traditional East Asia, and Human Development. It's weird that they're all tying into eachother, lately. It's also weird that I'm having no trouble taking /two/ history classes, when last year I ended up failing only one history class and I hated it. =\ I love the small class sizes, I'm not gonna lie. And the way the classes are set up, I feel much more relaxed; it's nice to know that your professor actually knows your name, and that you don't have to rely on a TA to give you your grade. You don't feel like a pain in your professor's side this way-- taking precious time out of their schedule to come lecture 400 students, who are probably just listening to their ipod anyway..
Speaking of iPod's... Mine has officially broken. *is very sad* I really want to buy a nano. Those things just look ridiculously cool.
Oh yeah! I'm 19 now, too.
XD
I've been opening at work for the past 2 weeks, and I really like getting up that early. I've started to notice things about myself now that I'm away from the Davis enviornment, that I probably never would have noticed before. Or maybe that's just a part of getting older. hmm...
Living at home with my parents has been difficult for me lately. My Dad still hasn't stopped drinking, even though that was the terms of agreement when my mom moved back in here. I know she's miserable, and I'm not sure how to help her out. =\ He's been okay, but I still get uncomfortable when he puts his hand on my shoulder, or even says 'I love you' because he /never/ said it when I was younger, and I feel it's too soon, especially when he's been upsetting Mom so much.
I feel like I need to get away from this enviornment too. I love being able to see my mom everyday, but since she's started her new job, she doesn't get home until very late now, and I'm left to deal with my Dad getting drunk at nights, and trying to avoid talking to him.
I don't know. I feel kinda guilty about the whole thing... Like I shouldn't leave because that would mean leaving mom here by herself. And I know she's a grown woman, and I shouldn't feel guilty about wanting to grow up, but I can't help it.
I've also started medication again. But not just for depression. I've been having horrible panic attacks for about 3 months now; I wouldn't have been able to figure out what they were if my mom wasn't there to witness one herself. I HATE having them... I don't feel bad about taking this medication anymore though. It's there to help me out, and I really want to feel better. Anyway, it's called 'Lexapro' which I've taken before, but I wasn't aware that it was for anxiety as well as depression.
And, speaking of trying to feel better, I've decided to start running.
I've never really liked to run in the past, but I was kinda inspired to start after watching this commercial for the new Nike + ipod commericlas. I mean, that's pretty darn awesome. Have you guys seen those things?
Anyway, I've been researching how to start running, running for beginners, and other stuff. I ran this morning in intervals; run for one minute, walk for two, repeat 7 times. It took me about 30 minutes to finish the whole thing, which is what was supposed to happen, and I actually had a good time.
I was kinda putting it off because I didn't have any music to listen to, but paying attention to my time, and just running around the area that I lived in, it actually went kinda fast. Also, before I started, and after, I walked for 5 minutes to warm up/cool down. Apparently, this is like.. an 8 week training thing so that after 8 weeks you're going to be able to run for 30 minutes. That scares me. REALLY.
I had a tough time running for the 1 minute. Next week I'm supposed to do 2 minutes of straight running. That feels really impossible to me. But, I really want to stick to it. Who knows, maybe I'll be able to enter a 5K at somepoint.
What's also keeping me on this is that the time I was in Japan, I ended up losing about 50 pounds, which is A LOT of weight to lose, but it obviously wasn't healthy because I wasn't eating all that much, and I had to walk/ride a bike everywhere, and Kyoto is FULL of hills. So, it's no surprise that I lost weight, but I don't want to gain it back. And since I've started working, I've lost even more weight, because I'm always moving there, and I ride my bike to and from (usually) work and my house.
So, this morning, I weight less than I have since I was in 10th grade. That felt really good. :D
I'm considering making a journal just for my running. Make it a running/exercise blog. What do you guys think?
Man, it's cold around here lately. *shivers*
Anyway, now that I'm done updating, I promise to start writing more. I think this running thing is going to work out for me. Atleast, I really want it to. ^^
So, I'll talk to you all later!
<3<3 Lisa
But, for now, I think I'm up to the challenge. XD
I hope everyone has been well since we all last spoke. A LOT has happened over the past few months, so I've got a lot to talk about. :D
I've since gotten a job at Carl's Jr. It's actually going quite well, now that I'm getting into a routine. I notice that I've become more friendly and outgoing outside of work, so that's a really good thing. I feel better, and I'm more confident. Who knew, right? The only thing I really don't like is that I don't get to see my money. Since I don't have an ID (or a car, for that matter) I can't set up an account, I give all my money to my parents. It's kind of annoying; I've made close to $2000 and I've barely been able to spend $100 of it. I want to buy things. I want to be able to use my money at my own leisure. *sigh* This is a very large pain in the ass.
I also withdrew from UC Davis. That's right folks. No longer going there. :O Hopefully, if everything works out, I'll be transferring to University of Hawaii at Manoa-- they have a great Japanese program, and I'll be able to live with my friend Kalani, so that's always a plus. I haven't seen in a long time... I wonder how she's doing.
I'm taking 4 classes at Sierra College (the local JC here in Loomis). I LOVE them all. Granted, the three hour Geology class I'm taking runs a smidge long, but it's interesting, and my professor is funny, so it's all good. I'm taking Geology, History of East Asian Art, History of Traditional East Asia, and Human Development. It's weird that they're all tying into eachother, lately. It's also weird that I'm having no trouble taking /two/ history classes, when last year I ended up failing only one history class and I hated it. =\ I love the small class sizes, I'm not gonna lie. And the way the classes are set up, I feel much more relaxed; it's nice to know that your professor actually knows your name, and that you don't have to rely on a TA to give you your grade. You don't feel like a pain in your professor's side this way-- taking precious time out of their schedule to come lecture 400 students, who are probably just listening to their ipod anyway..
Speaking of iPod's... Mine has officially broken. *is very sad* I really want to buy a nano. Those things just look ridiculously cool.
Oh yeah! I'm 19 now, too.
XD
I've been opening at work for the past 2 weeks, and I really like getting up that early. I've started to notice things about myself now that I'm away from the Davis enviornment, that I probably never would have noticed before. Or maybe that's just a part of getting older. hmm...
Living at home with my parents has been difficult for me lately. My Dad still hasn't stopped drinking, even though that was the terms of agreement when my mom moved back in here. I know she's miserable, and I'm not sure how to help her out. =\ He's been okay, but I still get uncomfortable when he puts his hand on my shoulder, or even says 'I love you' because he /never/ said it when I was younger, and I feel it's too soon, especially when he's been upsetting Mom so much.
I feel like I need to get away from this enviornment too. I love being able to see my mom everyday, but since she's started her new job, she doesn't get home until very late now, and I'm left to deal with my Dad getting drunk at nights, and trying to avoid talking to him.
I don't know. I feel kinda guilty about the whole thing... Like I shouldn't leave because that would mean leaving mom here by herself. And I know she's a grown woman, and I shouldn't feel guilty about wanting to grow up, but I can't help it.
I've also started medication again. But not just for depression. I've been having horrible panic attacks for about 3 months now; I wouldn't have been able to figure out what they were if my mom wasn't there to witness one herself. I HATE having them... I don't feel bad about taking this medication anymore though. It's there to help me out, and I really want to feel better. Anyway, it's called 'Lexapro' which I've taken before, but I wasn't aware that it was for anxiety as well as depression.
And, speaking of trying to feel better, I've decided to start running.
I've never really liked to run in the past, but I was kinda inspired to start after watching this commercial for the new Nike + ipod commericlas. I mean, that's pretty darn awesome. Have you guys seen those things?
Anyway, I've been researching how to start running, running for beginners, and other stuff. I ran this morning in intervals; run for one minute, walk for two, repeat 7 times. It took me about 30 minutes to finish the whole thing, which is what was supposed to happen, and I actually had a good time.
I was kinda putting it off because I didn't have any music to listen to, but paying attention to my time, and just running around the area that I lived in, it actually went kinda fast. Also, before I started, and after, I walked for 5 minutes to warm up/cool down. Apparently, this is like.. an 8 week training thing so that after 8 weeks you're going to be able to run for 30 minutes. That scares me. REALLY.
I had a tough time running for the 1 minute. Next week I'm supposed to do 2 minutes of straight running. That feels really impossible to me. But, I really want to stick to it. Who knows, maybe I'll be able to enter a 5K at somepoint.
What's also keeping me on this is that the time I was in Japan, I ended up losing about 50 pounds, which is A LOT of weight to lose, but it obviously wasn't healthy because I wasn't eating all that much, and I had to walk/ride a bike everywhere, and Kyoto is FULL of hills. So, it's no surprise that I lost weight, but I don't want to gain it back. And since I've started working, I've lost even more weight, because I'm always moving there, and I ride my bike to and from (usually) work and my house.
So, this morning, I weight less than I have since I was in 10th grade. That felt really good. :D
I'm considering making a journal just for my running. Make it a running/exercise blog. What do you guys think?
Man, it's cold around here lately. *shivers*
Anyway, now that I'm done updating, I promise to start writing more. I think this running thing is going to work out for me. Atleast, I really want it to. ^^
So, I'll talk to you all later!
<3<3 Lisa