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Wow, its been a loong time since I've updated this thing. There's been a lot of shit going on, and a lot of stuff I just didn't want to talk about. But the real reason I'm posting-
I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. All the sudden, I realized I'm making decisions that effect the rest of my life. Not in an abstract sense. Literally, what I decide to do right now determines the course for the rest of my life. It freaks me out. Do I want to take a semester off to get my shit together? Do I even want to be in high school right now? Do I want to go to NSHS? Am I just going to scrape by the rest of high school? Or am I going to step it up so I can get into a good college? Or am I even going to go to college?
Some days I just feel like giving up. I wish I didn't have to do this anymore. I wanna take myself down and never come up. But thankfully those days are becoming fewer and fewer. I think I'm finally putting my depression behind me once and for all. I'm not scared of relapsing. I'm not saying I'm not depressed, but it isn't controlling my life anymore.
And thats all folks!
(You better get the looney toons referance)
I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. All the sudden, I realized I'm making decisions that effect the rest of my life. Not in an abstract sense. Literally, what I decide to do right now determines the course for the rest of my life. It freaks me out. Do I want to take a semester off to get my shit together? Do I even want to be in high school right now? Do I want to go to NSHS? Am I just going to scrape by the rest of high school? Or am I going to step it up so I can get into a good college? Or am I even going to go to college?
Some days I just feel like giving up. I wish I didn't have to do this anymore. I wanna take myself down and never come up. But thankfully those days are becoming fewer and fewer. I think I'm finally putting my depression behind me once and for all. I'm not scared of relapsing. I'm not saying I'm not depressed, but it isn't controlling my life anymore.
And thats all folks!
(You better get the looney toons referance)